Oh, We Are the Dancers

Hey gang,

So this post is going to be dedicated to C3 (yes, I'm aware that I'm about 2 weeks late but Megan has been gagging for it. SO MEGAN, you smack me, I smack you back ladeh!).

Sunday morning. First thing I did was shower and began freaking out when I couldn't find the top that I wanted to wear. In the end settled for a black halter top with an orange shirt over it (after Megan's 'advise' to wear orange because of D*Starz) with a pair of Baleno denim jeans, with black flip flops that has a flower applique and a matching soft leather handbag. (:
Went to Baizura's house at around 9-ish to hitch a ride to Cineleisure where C3 was held. Mel kept texting me asking me what time was I going and to text her back when I reached there.
Bai answered the door still wearing her black Wicked T-shirt and pyjama bottoms (sorry for disturbing your sleep in, B!). Bummed around for a while before Baizura finally went to bathe while I sat around cam whoring by myself in her house. LOL!

In the car, I had the randomest urge to text Pn. Christina and ask her if she was wearing something orange (Bai had chosen to wear an orange Winnie the Pooh shirt, SO CUTE!) and she texted me back telling me she was wearing the D*Starz supporter shirt. She then asked me where I was and that if I was going to park in IKEA, don't even bother because the parking lot was full. But thankfully, we managed to get a space in Cineleisure itself and Mel texted me to wait for her at the main entrance. Seeing as it was my first time in Cineleisure (I know la, I'm so lame) I was kinda blurr and called Mel once I got in.
"Where are you?" I asked.
"Nat, look behind you." She replied.
And there she was in all her skinny paleness.
T.T
I tell you ah, that woman....

Then we went to the courtyard or something like that where C3 was actually going to be held and found ourselves in a mob of cheerleaders. Seriously, I have never seen so many brightly coloured uniforms, short skirts and pom-poms gathered in one place before. Anyway, I dragged Mel to Popular in Ikano with me to get our 'supporter card' while Baizura went to have a drink with her mum. Got to Popular and I chose this really huge ORANGE coloured mounting board and a black permanent marker. While we were waiting to pay at the cashier, this lady came up to us and asked if we had a Popular card (and then I realized that I still have yet to pick mine up from the Popular at IOI Mall which has been ready like, three months ago). Mel had one and the lady asked if she could borrow it because she was buying some books for her kid. And then the lady asked if we could pay for it first because we were in line and the line was kinda long. So like the good, helpful teenagers that we were (ahem, ahem), we said yes and paid for the books as well as the mounting board and marker. The lady kinda read the receipt wrongly and gave us back the wrong amount of cash but Mel was like, it's okay. Good deed. (:
Either that or because the lady had already walked away.
Lol.

Realized there wasn't much time left before the competition started so Mel and I practically ran all the way back to Cineleisure. Mel asked me to write on the board while walking which is extremely difficult, mind you! I tried writing on the escalator but I got freaked out that I was going to fall off or something due to inertia or whatever the cupcakes. So in the end, I kinda stopped, threw the board onto the floor in the middle of the bridge connecting the Curve and Ikano together and sat down on the floor to write. People stopped and stared and I had a feeling I sort of looked like one of those artists that did random sketches of people. I was just glad that no one thought of throwing money at me which would've been seriously embarrassing.
-.-"

Made it just in time and met Poh Lian right outside of Cineleisure. Went inside and stood at the fringes of the crowd before I kinda pushed my way in (giant board and all) and ended up right beside the performing mat. The guy standing beside me stank of cigarettes and chewing gum. T.T
Anyway, it was a couple of other performances before D*Starz came out. Poh Lian and I were cheering like lunatics and I think Mel got embarrassed because she was standing with us. Lol. Because Poh Lian was the tallest out of the three of us, she held the sign up and it turned out we were the only ones there with a freakin' sign. One of the media people noticed this and came over to take our picture. Seriously, I was feeling very uncomfortable. I sort of lost Baizura until I recognized this tuft of hair and realized she was standing only a couple of feet away from me. Lol.

After D*Starz performed, Mel, Poh Lian and I sort of broke away from the crowd to go grab some lunch because Mel and I haven't eaten yet. Baizura had to leave because she had tuition. Then Mel, Poh Lian and I went to Starbucks at the Curve.
I ordered ice-shaken tea lemonade and venti-ed it because I was freakin' thirsty and chicken fingers. Mel, having sworn of chicken, ate cheesecake instead. Halfway through melepak-ing at Starbucks, Mel left Poh Lian and I to go and hang out with Alvyn (is that how you spell his name?) and left Poh Lian and I to our own devices. At first we were kinda lost, since we didn't really know what to do, and sort of just walked around Curve for a while before I suggested we go to Ikano and head over to Pet World to check out the cute furry lil' animals there.

I think we spent about an hour in Pet World looking at the animals. OHMYGOD, there was this incredibly cute Siberian Husky and aaaaahhhhh....
I want him. He is the most cutest dog I've ever met, I wanted to hug him so badly. Actually, there were two Siberian Husky puppies and one grown up one. I wanted all three! I swear to God, my heart just melted looking at them.
(:
*sighs*

After more walking in Ikano we went back to Cineleisure where I met Rianne, Lydiya and Yazmin. Hung out near the Nike shop. Oh, before that Poh Lian and I went to this shop in Cineleisure that sold purely nothing but magazines and YES, I FOUND AP THERE.
:D
I am a happy little girl. Lol.
Anyway, then Poh Lian had to go home so I hung out with Rianne. It's nice after spending years apart, that our friendship has suddenly reformed itself. (:
I missed her and I forgot how much I used to love her hugs. Well anyway....
I left at around 5.30pm. I saw Megan a couple of times, talking to random people and having her earphones in her ears and I didn't feel like bothering her. Hence why she is forcing me to post the pictures up.

SO HERE YA GO YOU PORNSTAR, YOU! (:
You know I love you Megan. :P






Me and Rianne. You can see Ain beside Rianne. Lol.


Oh, and I even made captured a video of D*Starz performing. So here it is.





CURRENT SONG: "Six Feet Under The Stars" by All Time Low
CURRENT MOOD: Tired + I WANT A FAN

Blinded By The Light

I have just changed into a a pair of funky blue floral printed shorts and a black spaghetti strapped top, enjoying a cup of instant chicken soup. Not exactly the healthiest diet but hey, at least it's something.

I just got back from Chemistry and Physics tuition. Tell me about it. T.T
It's so late and I feel like my brain has been used as a tennis ball. Anyway, I should go.
Sleep.

OH OH OH.

SRI AMAN'S IU DAY IS ON THE 23RD OF MAY SO PEOPLE, CLEAR YOUR FREAKIN' CALENDARS AND COME!!!!

See Satyan, and you said Sri Aman will never have an IU Day.
Take that! :P

CURRENT SONG: "Poppin' Champagne" by All Time Low
CURRENT MOOD: Sweaty + tired

Redefined

I WANT ALL TIME LOW'S LATEST ALBUM 'NOTHING PERSONAL' FOR MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!
Released July 2009 (but it might change)

Please, please, please, please, please....???

o.o

PLEASE!!!

Please Don't Leave Me, Without Saying Goodbye

I guess there's always going to be that void inside of me. It sounds so stupid but at the same time it doesn't. I'm so worried. I don't want to lose my best friends (Sand, Div, Mel, Bai, Mye and Sash). They mean the universe to me and so much more. I tell them I love them but I'm not sure if they know how much I mean it.

Then again, as Rianne said, we're always unaware of how much a person truly cares. I try to tell them, try to portray it...but how do you describe a feeling that has no boundaries?
No limits?
Its an infinity of love, an endless amount of trust and care.
We're slipping away and I can feel it. It scares me so much but I don't know what to do stop it.

Is there really a solution?
Will our friendship be salvaged?
Even if we do, will it still be the same? Or will the seeds of doubt corrupt our once free minds?

I'm so afraid. All I want to do is close my eyes and cover my ears and sing really, really loudly until its all over. The thing is, will I still have everything when it's all over?
I feel so lost. I feel so alone. I feel so hallow.
Like someone had stolen a piece of my heart.
Seven pieces, actually. How ironic.

I hide it all behind a smile. I make jokes, I laugh and act as though everything is normal. But once I'm on my own, the disguises are futile and I feel those unwanted emotions all over again. Why must there be these obstacles?
It's as though school isn't enough.
Why must there be so many, many trials?

I'm so afraid.....

Please don't leave me.

I love you.

Then Your Smile Fades

Hi people,

Its a few minutes to midnight and I should be listening to Boys Like Girl's 'Five Minutes to Midnight' song but I'm kind of in the mellow-ish mood right now. So The Starting Line's 'A Million Hearts' it is then. (:

I talked mostly to Lydiya, Rianne, Melissa and Su Ann today. Aww...Lydiya. I'm gonna miss you so so SO much, dear. Who else am I going to say, "Stop thinking." to? ='(

Today was sort of....well, to be honest. I don't really know how to describe today. I was like a freakin' mood-o-meter or something. At times I felt happy, at other times I felt sad.... It was like a roller coaster of emotions.
Yes!
That's it.
A roller coaster of emotions.

Chemistry and Physics tuition was also kind of bland. I'm not sure why today... I'm just so....
Moody.
I guess, I'm just trying to adjust to the changes that are happening all around me and trying to adapt myself to it. But every time I get close to feeling comfortable, something comes along and rips it by the roots, shreds it into tiny little pieces and throws them up into the sky again. And then there's me trying to make sense of it all while I pick up the tiny little broken pieces. *sighs*

I was watching The Hills while having supper/dinner after tuition just now (Yes, I'm a big fan of Lauren. Oh shut up.) and Lauren and Audrina's friendship painfully reminds me of this friendship that I know. Lauren and Audrina have been through so much together, the fights, the tears....and so have these two people. But some reason, they end up fighting a lot despite being the best of friends. A sort of hallow feeling enveloped me while I was watching that episode. It was like, seeing a double vision. I mean come on, these two friendships, between Lauren and Audrina and these two people were so similar....
It was freaky.

Anyway, I'm supposed to be researching a bit more for my English oral. Yes, I've picked a topic. It's gonna be about All Time Low (go figure). Pn. Suhafna kept going on and on about talking about something that's close to your heart. Currently that 'something' would be All Time Low. Of course that doesn't mean I'm not going to relate talking about The Maine, Hit The Lights, Chiodos, Boys Like Girls, Cartel, Circa Survive, Cobra Starship and Forever The Sickest Kids. Heck, even Fall Out Boy is going to be thrown into this. But that's just cause they've signed up to be in the 'Believers Never Die Part Deux Tour' with Metrostation, Cobra Starship and Hey Monday.


ITS NEXT MONTH YO!


They're even going to perform on Myra's Sweet Sixteenth at New Orleans. Mye, if I had Donald Trump's money, I would totally get you a first class ticket there and a front row seat (and a backstage pass).

So people, I've got to get to bed sometime soon.

Later Days,
Tash.

CURRENT SONG: "I Don't Wanna Know" by New Found Glory
CURRENT MOOD: Sleepy + tired + worried + sad + frustrated + lost + alone

Why Does Your Name Resound In My Head?

I am supposed to be doing History homework right now but the urge to blog overwhelmed me so here I am. Well, quick post I suppose.

I have yet to decide on a topic for English Oral (I had the randomest urge to talk about Ken Joe but uhh....that might be slightly weird if not psychotic). I'm sort of leaning towards talking about Hopeless Records but who knows?

I woke up with this empty feeling this morning....No idea why. Its like, I've been walking in shadows. Sort of in between reality and dreams. I honestly have no idea what is going on now except I'm missing a lot of people. So much that it actually hurts.

I have his smile in my mind now. A smile that caught me off guard and made me catch a breath. An intense feeling took over me, so powerful like a wave crashing onto the sandy beaches. I just wished he noticed.....

*sighs*

I need a life.

Laters,
Tash.

CURRENT SONG: "Jasey Rae" by All Time Low
CURRENT MOOD: Worried + missing

I Can Make Believe That You're Here Tonight

Hey gang,

I woke up this morning thinking that it'd be just another day of sitting in front of my computer blissfully ignoring the many headed monster homework that I have yet to tackle and severe its heads and irritatedly trying to find for a topic for my English oral (who cares about BM oral? I'll just drone on about some random speech from an old BM book of Karangans) but not English....my English Oral has to be the creme de la creme. (: Oh, shut up. I know I sound like such a dork.


BUT


Guess what I ended up doing instead?

Going out to Sunway Pyramid with Hannan. (:

Lol. It was totally random but fun. Went to watch Dragonball of all movies (ha ha ha, Lydiya, beat you to it! :D) and it was okay-ish, I suppose. But then again, I was trying my best not to laugh out loud every time Hannan pointed out something funny during the movies. I went AP magazine hunting before Hannan reached Pyramid and I came up with very unsatisfying results. *sighs*
Mira, do they just magically appear when you're around or something?

Bumped into Izzat Luqman at TGV with Hannan. Didn't say 'hi' though. I wanted to but I suck at approaching people. I know, I know. Stop looking at me like that. I usually just run up to the person and say hi but sometimes I morph into a six year old, alright?
Geez.

C3 this Sunday. I wanna go but transport is looking a little bleak at the moment. This is probably the billionth time this year that I've wished I had my freakin' driver's license. Urgh. Two more years....two more years....

Anyways, I really wanna spend tomorrow with friends. Yes, yes, don't worry. I haven't forgotten about homework. To be fair, I have tried to finish some (Pn. Hoh, why do chapters 2 & 3 of History have to be so flipping long?). Right, I'm going to go and make myself a cup of oats now.

Later Days,
Tash.

CURRENT SONG: "Seein' Red" by Unwritten Law
CURRENT MOOD: Thirsty + drowsy

Should've Known Better Than To Call You Out

Hey guys,

Sorry for the lack of updates. I've seriously been such a hermit crab and been spending time in my room only to go out of food and random work out sessions on the treadmill (tell me about it). My fingers refuse to play Jasey Rae. T.T

I'm pretty stoked because I finally made a Buzznet account which I've been wanting to do for a while now but I just couldn't bring myself to stop being a lazy *insert appropriate word here* and actually sign up. But I did! And I feel like a total noob. Oh well, don't we all?
I'm kinda tired to figure out the stuff around the place so I think I'm going to do that tomorrow in between trying to complete Biology worksheets and that essay for Pn. Suhafna. Not to mention the monster avalanche of History homework.

I'm wondering about next year's ICC. Sort of forming a dance group. Just looking for more members. I currently have Marion Raven blasting out of my ear phones as I type this out. I promised Mel and Rianne, I wouldn't stay up past 2.30am and now is.... *glances at the clock* 1.45am.
After the emotional overload I had today, I doubt I'd be sleeping anytime soon, Mel. But I'll try.

OMG

I am so weird. Despite not knowing how to use Buzznet, I have already added All Time Low as my friend. Pssshhh....typical. Anyways, I shall explore Buzznet tomorrow. Right now, my alter ego grungy gritty writer is convincing me to write something on the other computer in my room (which isn't hooked up to the Internet, sadly). I seriously hope there isn't any add maths tuition on Friday because I wanna spend time at Sandra's house instead of learning about.....what's it?
Oh yes, alphas and betas.

Oh screw, I should get to bed. Nights! Oh by the way, just because Ken Joe's name is bigger than Alex's, doesn't mean I love Alex any less. They're on the same level. (:

Laters,
Tash.

P/s: I miss that biri-biri (sheep) that is currently in NEW ZEALAND. Come back home already, Trisher! Baaaaa....!!! :D

CURRENT SONG: "Monsters" by Matchbook Romance
CURRENT MOOD: Hyper

Those 10 Things....TAGGED

I've been tagged by more than one person to do this so okay, fine....I'll do it! Lol.

What I Want For My Birthday List

List 10 things that you want for your birthday, doesn't matter whether the things that you want is possible or impossible to get. Tag 10 people to do this afterward. Have fun.

1. Bad Gal Lash Mascara by Benefit in black.
2. Tickets to this year's Vans Warped Tour
3. All Time Low's latest album coming out.....(this summer?)
4. A black Macbook
5. Enough Glamour Kills, Hurley, Macbeth, Adio, Atticus, Vans, Famous Stars and Straps, DC, Etnies and Volcom stuff to fill up my entire closet.
6. Alex Gaskarth
7. An Axe electric guitar
8. WOO KEN JOE
9. Friends marathon with my best friends (I'm gonna get you addicted)
10. A black fedora

(:

Okay, now who is actually going to follow that list for my birthday this year?

CURRENT SONG: "American Idiot" by Green Day
CURRENT MOOD: Scalded my tongue

I Feel Like I've Competed For Too Long

T-minus: One hour until I have to leave for Physics and Chemistry tuition.
Holidays are wasted on Miss Nirmala.

I'd like to say thank you to the people who have spammed my Cbox with their messages. Thanks you guys, you made me smile despite the thunder storm outside (Natasha no likey thunder). I slept at 1am last night, worrying about something I shouldn't be worrying about. Screw that I suppose. She's in my blood like poison, intoxicating me.
Sometimes I hate myself for caring.
I lie on my bed sometimes, watching the shadows in the corners of my room. Wondering what would happen if she ever knew the extent of how much I cared about her.
Does she lie awake like me? Thinking about me?
I doubt it.

*sighs*

Anyway, I woke up somewhere around noon and I haven't done much today. Except for practicing Jasey Rae and Remembering Sunday on my guitar. Watched Friends for an hour or so and then retreated back to my room for another guitar session and a large dosage of All Time Low, There For Tomorrow and Caprice. A very weird combination, I agree. But There For Tomorrow are amazing and I've been into Caprice's songs ever since ICC.
The way he says 'girlfriend' is cute. LOL.
Random.....

Seriously considering using one of his songs to dance to but it also depends on the other members of the dance group. So I'm off to take a very much needed shower before tuition. I should study a little before tuition but....
We all know I'm not gonna.
(:

Laters,
Tash.

CURRENT SONG: "Fantasy Girl" by Caprice
CURRENT MOOD: Dance with me

I Pissed Away The Best of Me

I'm not going to talk about ICC, even though I had the time of my life there. Pictures will be posted up on my Facebook. I just right now....I've got to stop.

Yes, I'm quite aware I'm not making sense here but just bare with it. Or better yet, just click the red X button on the top right corner like I know you want to.

I just don't understand anymore. Wait....maybe I never understood. I'm trying so hard to not cry. Trying so hard to explain myself to you. I don't know anymore.

You'd Give It All For a Miracle

Hi people,

Quick post. I'm suffering from 'procrastinator's guilt' which is basically when you've been procrastinating all sorts of homework until the very last minute when the teacher wants to give your formative marks which will determine whether or not you fail a subject.
Dammit.

Things to do:
*Finish Agama notes
* Finish Komsas
* Finish Biology PEKA

The best part? All of it is due tomorrow! Yes, I'm aware that it looks....well, not much. But trust me, it is. There's 5 chapters, 1 syair, 1 poem that needs to be written down for Komsas. And Agama....talk about 15 different worksheets?
And Biology is just....Biology....


Random Conversations of The Day


*Maegan showed Yazmin a picture of fishballs in star shapes which Lydiya, Yazmin and Nima were talking about later and Natasha over heard*

Lydiya: So they're like....fishstars.
Nima & Yazmin: Oookay...
Natasha: Starballs!
Yazmin: *gives Natasha a look* You do know that the word fish, is the most important part right?
Natasha: *pauses* Oh yeeeah....
Nima & Lydiya: *laughs*
Lydiya: You can't eat stars.
Nima: Or balls.

(:

*Megan was checking Trisher's English paper where we had to write an informal letter for the essay*

Megan: Look what Trisher wrote! *points*
"Yours sincerely, Sharpie."
Natasha & Yazmin: *laughs*
Yazmin: *pretends to sign the paper* Yours sincerely, Britney Spears.
Natasha: No, no! Yours sincerely, Barrack Obama.
Yazmin: *laughs* Yeah! No wait! Yours sincerely, Washington Bush!
Nima: *overheard and starts to laugh* Whey! Washington Bush? It's George Bush la!

*Lydiya asked Natasha*

Lydiya: What does the 'D.C.' in Washington D.C. stand for?
Natasha: *thinks* Uhhh....I don't know la.
Lydiya: I know it's something state....
Natasha: *raises an eyebrow* State?
Nima: It's Lydiya.
Melissa: It could be something county.....
Lydiya: Oh yah la!
Natasha: Or it could be..... 'D american Country'.
Yazmin: *gives Natasha a look and then starts laughing*

*Pn. Suhafna was annoyed with us because we use the word 'plus' in our essays instead of 'moreover' or something more English-y*

Pn. Suhafna: Stop using the word 'plus'! What is 'plus' anyway?
Class: Addition!
Melissa: I think it's like 'tambahan pula'....
Natasha: Yeah...It's 'tambahan pula' in English.
Yazmin: It's 'tambahan pula' in BM la!
Natasha: o.o OH YEAH!!
Yazmin: *laughs*
*a few minutes later*
Yazmin: In addition! That's what 'tambahan pula' is in English....
Natasha: In addition to that...
Melissa: I'm sorry. My dictionary doesn't come with plus-ation.

*During English literature class when we were discussing 'The Landlady' by Roald Dhal*

Pn. Su: The characters are Mr. Temple -....
Maryam: Mr. Temple? Oh wait...then got Mr. Mosque....

Kayh! Gotta go and do homework!

Laters,
Tash.

CURRENT SONG: "I Don't Wanna Fight" by Westlife
CURRENT MOOD: Shoulder aches

It's Not In What You Do, More In What You Say

Hello!

Got back some more results to do. Very unsatisfied with my Physics results.
T.T
*sighs*
But the world moves on!


Of The Random Conversations That Occurred Today


*Megan and I were talking about tamadun Rom and Yunani*

Megan: So is it Yom or Yunani?
Natasha: Yom?

*Su Ann, Mel and I were randomly talking and I started impersonating the big face from the movie 'Night In The Museum'*

Natasha: I want my gum gum!
Su Ann: Me dumb dumb!
Su Ann: *pause*
Su Ann: Eh waaait....
Mel: *laughs* Oookay....I'm just going to ignore that you just called yourself dumb.
Natasha: *laughs*
Su Ann: HEY!

*A couple of minutes later*

Natasha: What hairstyle do you think suits me?
Su Ann: Do like Mel's hairstyle!
Natasha: *gives Su Ann a look*
Su Ann: NO! Then you'll look like that drug addict...
Mel: You're saying I look like a drug addict?
Su Ann & Natasha: *laughs*
Su Ann: No.... she'll look like the girl that got kidnapped by the drug addict. Look like this one.... *does a weird grotesque looking face*
Natasha: Riiight....
Natasha: *pause*
Natasha: I think people with big foreheads looks nice with fringes. *thinks of Alex Gaskarth*
Natasha: And people with little smallheads.....wait....did I just say 'little smallheads'?
Mel: *laughs*
Su Ann: And you say I'm the dumb dumb.


LOL


:D
Yes but then....I went for taekwando. And didn't survive. T.T
Very long story. Let's just say, it was my first class of the year and since I've gone so long without feeling the intensity of the class...
I nearly puked.

I walked in the rain again today. (:

OH...

I've created a 'I heart Mel Koay' group on Facebook, so for those of you with Facebook please go join!

Laters,
Tash.

CURRENT SONG: "Over My Head" by Sum 41
CURRENT MOOD: Wants sleep

Will You Be There to Carry Me Home?

Right. First, I guess I should apologise for the freakishly emo post I posted down there (scroll down but seriously don't bother). I think....
What bothered me the most that day was the fact that I know...
Okay, not know but feel like my parents don't want me around.
Does that make sense?
I know, I thought so too.
But hey, I think we all know how keen my parents were on sending me to MRSM since last year and they've put like....tons of pressure on me during PMR to do well. And so it seems, I thought I was safe when I didn't make it in January. But alas!
They have another second intake.
Which made me feel even worst because I don't wanna leave.
I've checked.
And apparently I didn't get in.
So why do I still sound so melancholy? Because knowing my parents, they're going to find a way for me to be there.

*sighs*

It sucks even more because for some reason, Myra isn't talking to me.
Let's just cut the bullshit (sorry Pn. Christina but it's been on my chest and I really can't express it in another way) and.....well....I don't know.
I don't know exactly what I've meant to have done to upset you.
Or maybe you're just tired because of exams...
And tired because of your tightly packed schedule...
And because of so many other things on your chest that we don't get to talk about because we hardly see each other anymore because we take different activities and we're in different classes.
Maybe we just need some time?
I'm gonna give you the benefit of the doubt here because I don't know your side of the story. So please, when you're ready to talk....
Just say it.
I'm here.

Anyway....
I'm extremely tired right now. I've been on since Monday night. 3 hours worth of Physics and Chemistry. The best part is, despite being in Miss Nirmala's class....
I had no idea what was going on. No, honestly.
I just sat there, watching her drew these lines (otherwise known was linearly proportional graphs, inversely proportional graphs and God knows what else) and discussing the gradient and pretended to understand because it seemed like EVERYONE ELSE in the class understood except me. Uhm....humiliating much?
So I just sat there and continued and the next thing I knew there was a fraction, something like, 1 over M equals to 1 over infinity.
I really wished I didn't miss that extra class for Chemistry because everyone knows how to do bonds and I have no clue. And again.....
I've never felt more stupid than those 3 hours in class.

Mum couldn't pick me up after tuition last night so I hitched a ride with Baizura and slept over. When we got back to her house, I did what little of Biology PEKA that I could (which was very little considering how much I thought I could do) and ended up copying from Mel this morning (even then it still isn't finish. Thank God for the extended deadline).
I couldn't sleep properly last night for some reason. I kept waking up in the middle of the night (I lost count after 7).
On a slightly happier note, I didn't fail Bio. I got a 3B I think.


BUT!!!


I did fail add maths however.
See? What'd I tell you?
But it's okay, at least I avoided what Megan calls the 'one digit-ism'.
OH! And as I had predicted, I did really badly for my paper 2 in modern maths.
My mistake?
I used add maths formula to answer instead of modern maths formula.
For God's sake.....

Had a pretty long but interesting afternoon.
Interact Meeting.
Trisher wasn't around (what la you girl...) and I sat with Lilian. So instead of having it at our usual place (Kuliah Bakti) we had it at one of the form 1 classes which is located in the old school building beside the giant drain (sounds nasty, I know but I don't really know how to describe it *laughs*). And anyway, like halfway through the meeting some people sitting near the windows spotted a girl dressed in school uniform making out with a guy like on the other side of the road (basically the drain is like in between the school and the housing area). It was just really weird but the best part has yet to come...
After the meeting, the group of curious Interactors (curious? nosy? Doesn't matter. :P I was one of them anyway) went outside the classroom to the fence that kept us from falling down into the big drain to get a better look. By this time, the girl had stopped making out with her boyfriend and it looked like they were arguing.
The guy pushed her away and walked away and like, 2 minutes later, she started running after him.
Which prompted me to sing, "RUN BABY RUN!!!!" at the top of my voice.
I'm surprised they didn't hear me.
Lol.

So then everyone left although the drama continued so me, Mira, Kayshana and Deenisha stayed to watch (I know, I know, stop giving me that look). And the same situation happened like twice...
Guy push girl.
Guy walks away.
Girl waits a couple of moments.
Girl runs after the guy.

It was just plain sad. Then at one point, the girl ran to her bag, took out what seemed to be a love note (I was slightly disappointed, I was hoping it'd be a gun) and chased after the guy. She gave the guy the note and he stopped walking to read it.
And then at this point, Deenisha decided to let them know that we were there by shouting at the top of her lungs, "OIIIII!!!!"
They saw us.
We laughed.
Stood there.
Watched them watching us.
Walked slowly away from the place.
Stopped and watched some more (by then they weren't paying attention to us anymore).
And then eventually we walked away to my class so that I could give Mira back her AP magazine and she could give me, my SWIR cd back.

That was seriously the randomest Interact Meeting ending I've ever had.
OH!
My mum picked me up like an hour and a half later than she said she'd pick me up so you can tell that by the end of all this....
I really don't care if someone came up to me and said that Alex Gaskarth was doing a strip show a couple of meters away from me and said that I got A1 for Chemistry, Physics, BM and English. I would've just walked away.

Seriously.

Laters,
Tash.

P/s: Ignore the strike-d out stuff because if THAT happened, I'd probably be the first one on the scene. (:

CURRENT SONG: "Stay Awake (Dreams Only Last For A Night)" by All Time Low
CURRENT MOOD: Tired + needs sleep

Until We Get Caught

I'm still alive.
Not that anyone cares but screw it, yeah?

I am this close at throwing my phone out the God damn window because it proves to be as pointless as having to learn linear equations in high school and then learning non-linear equations in college. I have never known how a quiet phone could be so god damn annoying, like a constant reminder how I clearly don't mean anything anymore.

Oh crap. I'm sorry. Did my words make you feel uncomfortable?
I'm tired of being the one who always cares.
Who always put the blame on her shoulders.
Because it always is, isn't it?
It's always my fault some way or other.

Here's a sure fire way to know that no one gives a damn about you anymore: When you're own Mother doesn't know that you haven't eaten dinner even though its like 1am in the freakin' morning.

I sound like an over privileged brat, I know. But for the sake of flying frying pans LA.

I've been worrying sick for the last three days for reasons I shall not disclose because it's too pathetic (I think I mentioned I care about those people around me? Oh wait...maybe that's it!). I can't even freakin' remember the last time I had a shower let alone a proper meal because have I mentioned I've been literally on my own for the last couple of days?

Here's Natasha idea of a 'meal' for the last three days: A 240g worth of sodium instant noodles.

Sounds pathetic, doesn't it?
Oh yes, it does.

There's tuition tonight. There's school tomorrow.
Yay. More faking a smile and pretending every thing in the world is absolutely peachy when it isn't.
I'm writing Su Ann's story now because that's all that matters now, really.
Oh, and Biology PEKA. For the sake of not flunking out of Science stream.
Ah yes.....and to memorize those 20 elements for Chemistry:

Hydrogen (1)
Helium (2)
Lithium (2.1)
Beryllium (2.2)
Boron (2.3)
Carbon (2.4)
Nitrogen (2.5)
Oxygen (2.6)
Fluorine (2.7)
Neon (2.8)
Sodium (2.8.1)
Magnesium (2.8.2)
Aluminium (2.8.3)
Silicon (2.8.4)
Phosphorus (2.8.5)
Sulphur (2.8.6)
Chlorine (2.8.7)
Argon (2.8.8)
Potassium (2.8.8.1)
Calcium (2.8.8.2)
Natasha's dead inside (There isn't a simplified electronic structure for this unfortunately, the pathologists are still confirming C.O.D)


Here's to you.


CURRENT SONG: "Miracle" by Vertical Horizon
CURRENT MOOD: Screwed up, if you must know.

This Four Leaf Clover is All But Useless Now

HI PEOPLE.

Can you tell I'm bored?
Well, I am. I feel like I'm in my own protective bubble like a choked up version of 'Bubble Boy'.
CAN YOU PLEASE TAKE ME OUT?

Random conversations I had today.


Sean....have I mentioned how weird you are?



Trisher dreams of mosquitoes.



And again. Don't ask.

So I've been cooped up in my house like someone suffering from a highly contagious disease. I've been watching One Tree Hill season 5 *again* and Friends *again*. Oh...my medication is so strong that after a few minutes of taking it, knocks me out like....BAM.

There's tuition on Monday night.


WHAT THE BURNING CUP CAKES?


It's a friggin' public holiday! *sighs*
Am currently watching Altitude TV on YouTube.
Trisher is leaving for NZ on Monday. I'm gonna miss her. =(
Interact meeting on Tuesday.
God dammit...I need new court shoes.

Eh...I have nothing much to blog about anymore. I wonder if anyone even reads my blog anymore. =\
Been having writer's block which is well.... a pain.
Alex Gaskarth is so friggin' smexy. I want to lick him. (:

NATASHA LOST HER PLECTRUM. ='(

Laters,
Tash.

P/s: OH OH OH MIRA!!! CURVY BLUE!!! =B
And Melissa Koay Su Min....Update your blog.

CURRENT SONG: "No More Room To Breathe" by There For Tomorrow
CURRENT MOOD: Sticky

Of YouTube-ing

Right people! Go watch. (:
And while you're at it, check out the McFly video that Sash and I made. :D
Comment, rate?
Please and thank you!

I Want Someone Provocative and Talkative

This is what happens when its all physics and no fun.

So, I didn't go to school today since apparently my immune system is totally fried. I've been sick over a month now. Okay fine, I got better for a while and then the viruses came back. Wow. I never realized I was such a good hostess.

I've lost my appetite. These days I've mostly been eating bread and jam or bread and egg for breakfast/lunch/dinner. I swear to God, I think I lost like 2kg or something. Well, I can fit into my old black torn up Goggle jeans now so that's a definite plus. But I like food!
Food. Yummy, yummy food....
But I can't manage to look at it without feeling the urge to puke.
T.T

I have yet to start on my Biology PEKA reports. Erm... It turns out this Sunday is going to be canceled due to the fact that at least half of the people who were suppose to come can't make it after all.
And here I thought I'd be able to have some find and cam whore for a day. *sighs* Looks like its just another quiet weekend at home for me. Well, as quiet as it is when you have Alex jumping around on your monitor in YouTube. I'm still trying to write that story of mine but the ideas keep coming up....mediocre. I've also been doing the next installment for the Interact newsletter but as I mentioned with my other story...It's just...
Mediocre.

Anyway, short post today. I don't know what happened to my blogging skills but I think it died somewhere in the middle of add maths exam yesterday.
Confirm failing.

Laters,
Tash.

CURRENT SONG: "Sex & Love" by Faber Drive
CURRENT MOOD: In need of a shower

Be Anymore Obvious, Could You?

Hey gang,

So exams are over and we're supposed to be jumping with joy at the pending holidays that would soon be a warm welcome. But....
Let's face it, I can barely smile thanks to the fact I'm positively sure I failed Add Maths and Modern Maths. For Add Maths, out of eight questions, I could only answer three. I banged the rest. Modern Maths...Let's just say, RIP Paper 2.

I can't wait for this Sunday. Hopefully will be going out.
Speaking of this Sunday, at least something made me laugh today.

Me.
Rianne.
Su Ann.
Mel Koay.

"Me plus you and shopping for pants."

"No. Me plus you plus shopping for Natu's present."

*Mel walks over to where Su Ann, Rianne and I were talking*

"You free this Sunday?"

"I don't know. Maybe. Why?"

"Good. Then they can drag you along."

"Wait, this Sunday?"

"Yeah."

"I don't think so. I'm going out in the afternoon and coming back late."

"Oh, just say you're going to the doctor's la."

*Natasha looks at Su Ann with a weird look*

"What?"

"She said she got back ache, what..."

"I'm going out in the afternoon and coming back late"

*Rianne and Natasha laughs*

"No. What? Ha? You've got a back ache? Sit down la Mel!"

"I'm going out in the afternoon and coming BACK LATE."

"Ooohhh...."


LOL.


Su Ann, Su Ann....
Then there was another one. This time Su Ann and I were sitting together, trying to study Modern Maths and Mel and Pn. Yong were standing in front of us.

Pn. Yong.
Su Ann.
Me.

"Eh, eh...Nat...Look. Mel looks like Pn. Yong la. They match!"

*Natasha glances at Pn. Yong and Mel and laughs*

"Yeah."

*Natasha and Su Ann continues to look at Pn. Yong and Mel*

"Why? We look like mother-daughter ah?"

HA HA HA.
Tell me about it, Pn. Yong!! (:

Congratulations to Su Ann for teaching Pn. Yong how to use a correction tape (a.k.a. rollers). To quote Su Ann, "She teaches me Biology, so I teach her the correct usage of a roller."
Lol. Funny people.

Anyway, I'm going to go and watch YouTube videos and ignore the up coming results.
*dum dum dum*

Later Days,
Tash.

CURRENT SONG: "Light The Way" by All Time Low
CURRENT MOOD: Sick + sneezing

Harsh Reality

I honestly, thoroughly think that I screwed up my History and Biology papers.

OH SCREW IT! I DON'T GIVE A FLYING FRYING PAN ABOUT WHAT HAPPENS INSIDE A PLANT!! AS FAR AS I'M CONCERNED THEIR THERE TO PROVIDE OXYGEN AND LOOK PRETTY IN CORNERS!

Right. Now that I've got that off my chest, I can continue my usual blogging. Well not usual, nothing much happened except well....studying.
How exciting, non?
Can't wait for this Sunday. Might be going out with Trish, Megan and Mae to watch a movie.

That's all! I'm going to go memorize formulas and theories now for Physics, Add Maths and Modern Maths tomorrow. God bless me if I forget to bring my calculator tomorrow or it runs out of batteries in the middle of exams. T.T

Later Days,
Tash.

CURRENT SONG: "Holly (Would You Turn Me On)" by All Time Low
CURRENT MOOD: Sick

I Gamble With Desire

*Natasha melts into a pool on her chair*

OH MY GOD ALEX FREAKIN' GASKARTH WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO ME?!?!?!

T.T

It Gives Me Vertigo

Right,

I've just had a hot bath and given myself a good facial scrub because I am on the verge of a mass break out of pimples due to stress levels being as high from here to Jupiter because of exams.
Natasha cares about exams? Shocker!
Ha ha.

I scared myself shit-less for Agama. In retrospect, it was okay. Chemistry was a whole other story for that matter. I couldn't answer two experiment questions so I just wrote the first thing that came to mind and I got 'Ar' symbol wrong, mistaking it for silver when it was actually argon. Mel, kill me now, please?
Okay, fine. I shall not dwell on my past mistakes and look forward to the future instead! Ironically enough, I have a History exam tomorrow.
I was doing my English paper idly and didn't realize I had only 25 minutes left on the timer and I was only on the fourth paragraph of my essay. =/
That's what you get when you let your mind slow down during English exams. Although I think this was the constant speed of my mind, before. o.O

Had to rush out from school when the bell rang because I had a dentist appointment. Sorry Mira! I waited for a while to return your AP magazine but then....
Well, appointment. T.T
They changed the wires to another thicker wire (as if the old one wasn't thick enough), did some weird funky thing to the top of my teeth by linking another metal around the brackets instead of the usual colourful rubber bands. But the rubber bands on my lower teeth are blue, white and red. Which are pretty awesome so to say so myself. Though they tightened it to the maximum and added this extra rubber band that stretches from my molar teeth to my canine teeth and my mouth is already hurting.
Seriously, there are so many things going on in my mouth it makes me dizzy just thinking about it.

Lately, I've been obsessed with red Cadillac convertibles, this really cute pair of green patent wedges and skinny purple bangle both by Marc Jacobs for his Spring '09 collection. (:
I'm writing a story, its currently under wraps and the only people that I would allow for proof reading is Su Ann, Mel, Divya, Sandra and possibly Mira. Other than that, I won't let another soul read it until it is absolutely bona fide, si?
I'm still not sure if I should submit it to the Interact Newsletter or school magazine though.

Anyway, its History, BM and Biology papers tomorrow. Then Physics, Modern Maths and Add Maths the day after. Hah.
I should probably go and get some studying done. =/

Later Days,
Tash.

CURRENT SONG: "Eddie's Song" by Son Of Dork
CURRENT MOOD: relaxed + tired + weary

Another seven days, heart beat racing...

So I'm currently drinking hot tea (oh how soothing to my sore throat) and potato bun because it's 11.10pm and I haven't eaten anything since like 3.30pm.
Just got back from tuition, *sighs*....
I could've sworn I fell asleep during Miss Nirmala's talk about the graphs in Physics.
Sean!
Sitting next to you is fun, buddy. Especially since we got to sit behind the dynamic duo (*ahem, ahem* Aaron and Baizura. Combo meal! LOL).

This week set off with a great start (Mira, I think you might agree with me?)....
Came late to school on a Monday, which practically calls for a death sentence since Monday mornings are filled with assembly. Mira and I (and several other kids) were forced to stand in front of the hall in total humiliation and as if we weren't already feeling remorseful. The Headmistress had to point her fingers at us and made us carry the blame for losing marks for our sports houses'.
Uhm, as I recall, the amount of students who were late last year were more than today. Don't lose your head because of it.
I mean, c'mon...
It's not like we aren't sorry and everything. She had to go all, 'Hey! Why not turn the whole student body against them as well?'
T.T

I hate school politics.

Studied Chemistry in the afternoon (Sash had to suffer with me) and then went straight to tuition from her house. Sean, Divya, Sandra, Baizura and Aaron made tuition fun tonight. Though I wished I wasn't so tired.
Anyway, should at least pretend to study so that my conscience would be tricked into thinking it has studied. (:

Cheers, mates.

Laters,
Tash.

CURRENT SONG: "Tongue Tied" by Faber Drive
CURRENT MOOD: Tired + coughing