Does This Look Infected?

The 'Solid Gold' concept for the song 'We're All To Blame' music video is really......bizarre. I'm still trying to figure out the connection but I don't think there is one....

Hey Pn. Christina, ever heard of 'Solid Gold'? Just wondering. It was apparently really really huge in the 80's. (:
The guy dancers in the video looked gay though. There was this one guy who was wearing this outfit and he looked like he was dipped in gold and he had a large pot belly.
-.-
Ew. It makes you wonder what he's doing wearing that teeny weeny T-shirt.
But Cone is ohmygawd jaw-dropping-heart-stopping-scream-worthy HOT. *drools*
I want Dave's 'No Skinny Chicks' shirt. Lol. I got to admit the dancers are pretty versatile. I mean, who knew that someone could actually come up with a full dance choreography for a song like..... 'We're All To Blame'? Haven't heard it? Go and listen to it. Heard it already?
I guess you'll know what I'm talking about, huh?

Anyway, before going to all the places my Mum took us (one was her friend's son's birthday party and the other some kenduri thingy for my great aunt and uncle who are leaving for Mekah tomorrow) we went to IOI Mall and I've done all my Raya shopping.
Lol.
(:
It's amazing what retail therapy could do. *sighs* There were just so many things....
Voir....Diesel....Tom's Girl....MNG...
I think I may have looked like that Energiser Bunny you know? Running around the whole entire store grabbing this and that.
No, no baju kurung or baju kebaya this year. Well, what's the point of making a RM700 baju kebaya for my aunty's wedding and only wearing it ONCE?
Okay fine, I've worn it a couple of times this year already (one for the Culture Shock fashion show and for Sash's sister's wedding) but c'mon..... RM700? And it's a pretty awesome kebaya.....

Besides, I don't think this year's Raya is going to be much fun. If anyone hasn't noticed yet but PMR is about 12 days away from the first day of Raya. Yeeeeahh....Not a really pleasant thought. Ohmygod, I don't think I'll be able to sleep the night before PMR.
Well, we'll all be at Miss Nirmala's tuition centre anyway......So yeah. (: That's a slightly reassuring thought.
I think. o.O

So I've come up with something.....
I know I'm pretty morbid and I spend most of my time emo-ing but no more. Seriously, I do NOT want to grow up be someone like shaven-headed Vanessa (yes, I've been reading too much Gossip Girl lately). I mean, yes, I do adore her for her dark films and the fact she doesn't give a damn about what other people think of her. But at the same time....I want to retain the part that made me...well me.
I wasn't always emo and morbid (yes, shocker!), in fact, I think I was more of a Serena van der Woodsen type. Minus the good looks.
LOL
So yeah, I shall begin my road to erm......ruin (*nudge nudge* Anyone know this?) today and reserve any morbid/dark/emo thoughts and stuff for my writing but NO, I am NOT giving up dark humour. Face it people, I'm a fan of sarcasm and I still love irony.

ANYWAY, Day 1 of Natasha Nadiah's resurrection!
She shall rise to urm......more utter random-ness and other screwed up things.
LOL
(:
I wrote a song today called, 'Could You Pretend?'. Inspired by Dan Humphrey.
Not good though. Lol. But better than nothing. It's got a melody, sort of. Less could be said about the other half dozen songs I've written.
I've been obsessing with Sum 41 all day today.
Natasha's Not-So-Secret Dream: To meet Cone McCaslin
Pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeease?
It's not like I'm going to rape the guy or something (interesting thought though) plus, I know he's got a girlfriend (for the last time Taylor Stevens, I AM NOT GOING TO KILL HER. I'll hire someone else to do that for me. LOL. JOKE!!!!). Honestly, I just want to ask him some normal fan stuff.
Like......marry me, please?


LOL

Right, right. I know you guys probably think I'm crazy right now. (:
Understatement.
So I'm going to see what Mum's cooked for dinner. It smells yummy but who knows....it could be cow's stomach or something. =S
I shall leave you all with a bunch of videos I got from YouTube that I've been watching over and over again every time I get the chance to go online.

Alright, you got me. They're all Sum 41 videos. <3>



This is the 'Over My Head (Better Of Dead)' video that I watched over and over again to cheer myself up. Seriously, it's pretty awesome. And pretty funny.



AHAH! NOT a Sum 41 video. This is a part from Mock The Week (my favourite British show). Russell Howard is my freaking HERO!!! 8D
Lol. I can see you people scrunching up your eyebrows wondering which one is he. He's the one in the red shirt. (:



And we're back with Sum 41. Or rather....Cone. (: *screams* I have yet to do a video for him like I did for Dougie.
Deryck is so short it's so cute. It's like I can pack him away in my Roxy hobo bag and take him out whenever I want to. Lol.
But the whole video is mostly about Cone anyway so YAY!



This was the video I made for Dougie Poynter. (:

~Screw Me Sideways~ (Yes, for those who read my MySpace blog before. THIS IS BACK!)

Unattractively Gay

I haven't showered since last Friday night before tuition.
Lol.
Okay, I'm not sure if you guys really wanted to know that. It was just....something random.

Well, the title of my post has got something to do with the Red Jumpsuit Apparatus song 'Disconnected'. When the guy sings the last part of the chorus and I know he's singing, 'A new chapter begins' but it sounds like 'unattractively gay' instead. I don't know. To me it does.

So this weekend has been filled with lots of....pent up writer energy. I have no idea where it came from but I basically spent the whole of yesterday either languidly lounging on my sofa watching movies (i.e. The Prom Night and The Guardian) and then spending time on the computer in my room typing out 'Beautiful Tragedy'. Yes, I'm proud of that fanfiction even though I know I'm NEVER going to have the guts to post it up any where.
And in between all this I was trying to learn Accounts for KH with my Dad.

My heart skipped a beat when he wrote, 'KJ' on the paper. I was like, whaaat?
And then I realized he meant 'Kos Jualan'.
-.-
I need to get a grip of myself. I think I did pretty well from Wednesday to Friday and ignored my silly little thing for him or otherwise known as KJ to my friends. I mean, what's the point of going all ballistic anyway?
It's a harmless crush (I think) of which I would soon get over with (I hope) and yeah....
I don't need to get all emotionally depress just because he's never spoken to me before. In fact, I was proud of myself for taking it pretty lightly for the last couple of days.
Well except yesterday when I had a break down with Mel.
She made me realize some things about myself and although she made me cry (I've got a tear-stained pillow to prove it) but I know she's just trying to look out for me. And everyone else around me.

ANYWAY, I promised myself I wouldn't get too down anymore. Mel's right.
I'm in love with a stranger.
This would make a pretty good cheesy teen movie right now. Or at least the catch phrase for a really cheesy teen movie.
So today my Mum is dragging me out to a couple of places (yes, dragging. I refuse to go but hey, what Mum says are rules. No?) and I've been trying to act all positive all morning instead of being jaded and pissed off.
Tom Delonge is doing a pretty good job at keeping my spirits up.
I woke up to these persistent knockings on my door and opened the door to find my Dad telling me he's going to Kelantan to send my grandmother. I went, "Okay."
And did the most typical thing anyone could fantom which was hug him. Then I crawled back under my warm duvet, grabbed my Discman and blasted Blink 182 even though it was only like 8am in the morning.
Never too early to listen to wild rock songs. (:

So it's already 9.30am and my Mum still isn't ready. Doesn't everyone always end up in this situation one way or another?
Right.
I might as well pretend to look excited and ready to go although we all know I'd rather be that pensive writer and sit in front of my computer all day long, writing 'Beautiful Tragedy' and listening to random rock songs and generally ignoring the fact that I've got to study.

Ha ha ha. Miss Nirmala would be so proud of me.

Stabbed.Bleeding.Fuck You.

I HATE HER.

Of Sandra and Snakes

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SANDRA!!!!!!!!!

(:

Sooo.... we sort of finished trials today. And guess what? We're having another exam thingy two weeks from now. I sort of agree with Ain, there are so many exams, don't care anymore. Just do them.
Who cares about results?
Lydiya is right....Exams are fun. But then again....the only downside is the actual studying part of it.
The good side of it, we can sleep after the exams and you can sit and brood as long as you want without people bothering you!
LOL
Although I do miss Pn. Chris's classes. There's this thing about English classes I seem to like in Sri Aman.
Tuition....
Gurh.
I couldn't stand the crash course for the English segment. I don't know how Baizura can stand going for normal tuition for that.

Anyways, Sandra is fifteen today. (: I wished her at exactly 12am today. Well at least I think so. LOL.
So that just leaves Mel and I......
Pffft....
I don't mind being the youngest but it is kind of sad, in some ways. No, the youngest does not get away with everything despite popular belief.

I'm currently hanging around YouTube watching McFly. OMG....Dougie is super duper yummy with platinum blonde hair. GAWD....I just want to-....
Right I better not say what's really going on in my mind. (: It's a bit..... PG18, if you will.

I missed tuition today because it was raining pretty heavily up here in the rural parts of Puchong. LOL. YES. RURAL. I feel so isolated from everyone ever since I moved here! And the blinking phone reception is so baaaaaad......
Gah.

Sooooo.....McFly is reaching out to me. (: Nites all.

Douche Bag

Currently Listening To: "I Hate Everything About You" by Three Days Grace

Alright, quick update right? I'm only allowed to be here until 9.30pm. From my guess anyway...
So....
I did something stupid last night. Mel told me to go for it. I went for it. And now....I think I just threw everything off balance and I have no idea if I've fucked it up or not.
Ohmygod.
Of all the times to be struck by Cupid's arrow huh?
Right when PMR is just around the corner.....Trials are currently eating me alive and it's not like I don't have my future to think about.

Okay sorry, that was emo and random. But fuck all whey.....This is annoying. I can't stop thinking about stuff I shouldn't be thinking and you know the stupid part? I fell asleep during Science exam paper today and I dreamt of him. I woke up thinking I died because the lights were shining in my eyes and I was cold (I was sitting under the fan and light) and I was murmuring to myself, "So this is how death feels like...."
-.-'
Yeah, then I looked around and noticed I was still in the classroom.
Damn.

Currently Listening To: "Never Too Late" by Three Days Grace

Wednesday is Sand's birthday. Hah.....so Mel and I are the only ones who aren't technically fifteen yet.
I need to take a break. I need to.......gather myself again and figure out where I'm heading. Because it feels like my whole life has been broken into tiny pieces like conffetti and thrown up into the sky. I wonder where they'll land.
Will I be too broken by then?

I want someone to hug me. I miss getting hugs. Everyone these days seem to be so........caught up. I'm surrounded by all the people I love but it feels like I'm alone. Haven't you ever had that feeling?
When you're in some place loud and thumping but yet......you're still lost and alone?

Currently Listening To: "Welcome To Hell" by Sum 41

I've got the word 'douche bag' in my head. Which is totally random since I've also got Deryck Whibley and Cone McCaslin in my head at the same time. I've also got pink tutus and Gucci leather bags in my head. Seriously, if anyone were to take a stroll in my mind, they'd never find their way out again. Lol. I imagine they'd find this mysterious door with a heavy padlock on it marked, 'DO NOT ENTER'
And inside there would be all of my dirty thoughts stored in ominous looking files like those unsolved mysteries files. Yeah. That would be sort of freaky in a cool way.

Currently Listening To: "There's No Solution" by Sum 41

I wonder who exactly is Cone dating. I think I saw his girlfriend once or twice but I didn't really see her.....She's like some mystery woman. No, no. I'm not an obsessed fan that will go after her with a knife. In fact, I'm happy for her. Cone seems like a really nice guy. She's lucky to be dating him. Or him her. I don't know.
Talking about Cone makes me feel like writing my Sum 41 fanfiction story that I've abandoned for the time being. It's called 'Beautiful Tragedy' and yeah....
Thanks to Mel for helping me out with the title. (:
Maybe I'll publish it online someday.

Currently Listening To: "Poetic Tragedy" by The Used

I miss form 2. I miss the time when I was a totally obsessed McFly fan girl, jumping around, singing McFly songs all day everyday, enjoying everything at any given time. Ever since form 3 came around, it's like some sort of reality slap and I realize....No, I'm not going to get married to Dougie Poynter (ha ha ha. He's got a girlfriend anyway...lucky biatch) and no, I'm not going to move in with him and get to know Zukie, Dougie's pet lizard. I'm not going to bump into them on tour. I'm basically NEVER going to meet them.
But despite accepting those facts, I know that that McFly girl is still inside me, buried somewhere in the depths of my heart. Waiting for the day that I'd unlock her from her prison and unleash her into the world once more. Heh. That was sort of poetic.

Currently Listening To: "Buried Myself Alive" by The Used

Lol. Although you gotta admit it. 'Natasha Poynter' does have a nice ring to it. (:
Oh c'mon Dougie.....can't you have some twin stashed away in that closet of your's so that I can hook up with him if I can't get you?
Damn it Poynter, the Hell?
LOL
Okay, that was random.
I've got over ten fanfictions of McFly in my other computer and they're all about Dougie. Lol. Yes, I was/am/still that obsessed. Hey, as much as I might've 'matured' this year. I'm not giving up ALL hope on Dougie.
I've been in love with the guy since 5 years ago. How do you throw away five years?
Yes, FIVE.
TAKE THAT YOU SRI AMAN BITCHES WHO CLAIM DOUGIE LEE POYNTER IS YOURS WHEN YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHO THE FUCK HE WAS BEFORE 'JUST MY LUCK' CAME OUT!!!!!
Gurh.
There was this form 1 girl who called me a bitch because I published 'Friendship Bracelet' in the Sri Aman bulletin which was technically a McFly fanfiction about Dougie.
I was like, "What.The.Fuck?"
You don't even know me, who the Hell are YOU to call ME a bitch? Bloody Hell. You want to challenge me is it? I'll bet you that by the time Dougie is old and another band comes along to replace McFly, you'd have forgotten all about him but I'd still be there.
Bitch indeed.

Currently Listening To: "Falling For You" by Something Corporate

I remember how I had gotten obsessed with this song. Someone made a video about James Bourne on YouTube using this song. (:
Jaaaaaaames Bourne.
He's going solo now? o.o
Amazing.
Ah....damn Malaysia and your lembab music social scene. -.-'

Random fact: I've got over 1500 pictures of Dougie Poynter on my computer.
Yes.
Yes.
YES!
Obsessed?
LOL
Eh, be thankful I'm not stalking him. If I was....I'd have been thrown into jail by now. o.o
Actually, that would be kinda freaky too. Imagine if I had 1500 pictures of him. *shudders*
He may be my crush and I may think he's deliriously hot, but I think from now on I'll just watch from a distance in tuition. No more....chasing...hunting...whatever. It's hopeless.

Currently Listening To: "Disconnected" by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

Right. Later, I'm watching McFly The Greatest Hits Concert DVD and no one is stopping me. Not even trials. (:


OMG. YES PLEASE!!!!! *nudge nudge* I don't mind. (:


It's amazing how this guy seems to have a magnetic pulling force on me.


"I'll be there for you,
When the rain starts to pour,
I'll be there for you,
Like you've been there before,
I'll be there for you,
Cos you're there for me too."

Those moments

So since I'm not going to be around for the week (or God knows when) I thought of spamming my blog with pictures. (:

"

The poser picture. 8D




Smile.

This is completely random.



=]

Mine and Sandra's birthday present to Divya. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIVYA!!!



Hari K picture. As you can see, it looks like I'm about to kiss Myra. T.T LOL

Another old picture. We pretended to be on Malaysia's Next Top Model. BAHAHAHA....



Trisher and I have never seen a cone before so we HAD to take a picture with it. =D

Getting ready for Sash's sister's wedding at Baizura's house. You can see Bai in the picture looking like she wants to kill herself. o.O



Me DOT



Myra!!!!!!!!!!!!! Damn it, why wasn't Larry there?

Bai and Mye. (:

Baby come on

Currently Listening To: "Disconnected" by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

Harsh realization.
PMR 7 years ago is SO SO SO different than the last four years. Why?
My Dad just downloaded some crappy BM and Maths questions from Alam Shah dated 2001, and the format is so damn different I couldn't do it (no puns intended).
Like, what.the.fuck?
The maths is in BM.
BM.
The Hell?
Gah, screw this shit. I'm sticking to the last four years questions.

Stupid thing happened today. I walked into tuition and I got horny. BAHAHAHA....
Kidding, kidding.
It was just damn effing cold in there. Well it was raining so yeah....

Yesterday was......yesterday.
It was stupid.
Wish I saw it coming. Technically I did. But I didn't want to believe it. *shrugs*
Whatever.
Life goes on! And erm.....so does PMR. T.T
Stupid shitty exam paper.

I'm not giving up hope. But I'm sure as hell that my emo-ing days are over. From now on, I'm just going with the flow (wherever it takes me).
GAH.
Tomorrow is the school trials. Greeeeat.....as if we haven't suffered enough.

Can't wait till PMR is over so I can get that freaking skateboard. -.-'
Not that I'm looking forward to falling down onto my knees or elbows or BETTER STILL my ass, I just want to do something worthwhile. Yes, studying isn't worthwhile. Stop claiming that it is.

EH BODOH LA....I got this random thing in my head since this morning and I can't get it out and it's annoying the fuuuuuuuuuuuuck out of me. That's it. I'm going to smother myself with songs. See ya on Saturday if I can get near to the computer. Unnngghhh....

"Don't hang up on me,
Cos I'm hung up on you."

Thank You Velcro!

Currently Listening To: "King of Contradiction" by Sum 41

I have been sneezing my ass of for the last week. There was this one time during Crash Course when I sneezed and my whole chair flopped to the front. Well, not flopped but moved to the front. I would like to take this time to say, "It's the effing holidays and I'm sick?!?!?!"

Well technically, it's not exactly 'the holidays' for those of us who are sitting for PMR (in four weeks as my tuition teacher has oh-so-kindly pointed out to us yesterday). So I'm only half-pissed.

Currently Listening To: "Keeper" by Yellowcard

I just realized that most of our stuff is attached together by velcro. Without velcro, we wouldn't be able to......stick!
So thanks Velcro. For erm.....sticking us together.
(:
That was totally random, I know.

Today is my first confrontation. Well, sort of. I'm not quite sure what's going to happen later which makes me sort of freaked. o.O
I'm trying not to think about it much and Russell Howard is doing a pretty good job at distracting me. Taylor called again last night (early this morning. 4am. As usual -.-) and I got him updated about what's been happening with me.
"You're so screwed Tash." Were his words of advice for today.
Gee, thanks Taylor. Some friend you are. =P

I was watching Charlie just now and I had forgotten how cute that guy is. Lol. He's moles! I'm in love with his moles!! LOL.
OMG.
My sisters are annoying the shit out of me. I can't take kids. Seriously, I'll make a really bad mum one of these days. Hang on, I do like kids. But from the 8 year old variety and above. Not below. I can't stand the noise. The crying. The utter gah-ness of them all. Sometimes I just don't know what to do. What to say?
How am I suppose to entertain them?
I just freeze when someone asks me to take care of their kid for a couple of moments. I'll sit and stare at them. Pn. Chris, don't ever ask me to babysit your sons! Not that I think you trust me with them anyway. o.o

Currently Listening To: "23" by Jimmy Eat World

This song reminds me of Sash. Probably because it has the number 23 in it. Anyway, today is Sash's sister's wedding and I'm going right after tuition with Baizura. I forgot to ask Mye if she's coming. But I'm sure she is. Finally, a reunion between friends during these 'troubled days'.
I miss Mel. I miss hugging her skinny bone-y body. =P
I always feel HUUUUGE hugging her and I'm afraid I'll crush her. -.-"
Speaking of Mel, Mel's Joel (yes, I call him Mel's Joel because Myra has her own couple of Joels. We should start calling them 'Joel 1', 'Joel 2' or just call them by their Chinese names) is going to be joining us for Science and Sejarah. Or was it just Sejarah.
Just Sejarah.
Today.

Divya's going to be joining Science and Sejarah!!! 8D I couldn't stop poking her yesterday. For some reason I've got this conversation from Science crash course in my head.
We were talking about animal support systems during Science and Kartiik had randomly said, "I like eating elephant legs soup."
Then someone in the class shouted, "That's why your legs also like that."

LMFAO

Currently Listening To: "Falling In Love" by McFly

-.-
Of all the songs you guys had to write.

I think one of my most favourite smells in the world is lemon & Coke with a tiny hint of cigarette smoke. Why? Because it reminds me of the good times I had with my family when I was younger. Before 'the problems' began.
Yeah, I remembered we always went for holidays back then at beach resorts and stuff, and at night we'd all just laze around in the pub & bar place. And the pub & bar places ALWAYS smelt like lemon & Coke for some reason.
*sighs*
I remember learning how to play snooker.
It's been years since I've played snooker. It's been longer still since my parents and I (note I said, 'my parents and I') have gone out and hung out at those kind of places.
Things are changing and I don't like it.

Sure, change is good and bla bla bla. But......I still want some things to never change. Take for example, the end of PMR. There's not going to be anymore tuition. Some of us only meet during tuition, no tuition means.....no more meeting.
Then at the end of the year when my parents are all set to send me to boarding school.
The thing is, I don't want to go.
I don't want to leave everyone I love and care behind me. Is there any possible way to stuff them into my bag and bring them along with me?
No, I thought so.

Currently Listening To: "Disconnected" by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

4 weeks.
4 bloody weeks.
Shitty.

You know what would be extremely funny? If let say......10 years from now....Miss Nirmala had a reunion for her students of 1993 who studied with her in 2008. Ha ha ha. In 10 years we'd all be 25 and omg.....Lol.
I can't imagine.
Will Edward have grown?
Will Albert fly back from Australia?
Will Baizura be coming back from New Zealand?
Will Sandra be a lawyer?
Will Prime be studying in some high ranking U?
Will Trisher still be with her 'B'?
Will he still look like a Chinese version of Deryck Whibley?
Most importantly.....
WHERE THE HELL WOULD I BE?!?!?!
UK?
Canada?
What will I do?
Psychology?
Criminal law?
Forensic science?
Mass com?

So many questions. And the answers? 10 years from now....


"Was I invading in on your secrets?
Was I too close for comfort, you pushing me out when I wanted in?
What was I just about to discover?
When I got too close for comfort,
Driving you home,
Guess I'll never know."

HE'S NOT MINE

Happy Birthday Divya!!!!

Currently Listening To: "You're Not Mine" by The Morning Light

Melissa Koay Su Min. You donkey la you, why'd you go delete your blog? I feel like I haven't talked to you in years. -.-'
Syaheerah Sallehuddin. When are you coming back from Kelantan?

Today's crash course was so....uuunnnggghhh....
I feel like I'm crashing into something alright. A brick wall. Over and over and over again. Divya's birthday was fun (for us) but not so fun at the same time thanks to some people in our class. -.-
I won't go into the messy details because.....it's stupid. It's private. And yeah, not my story to tell. Just in conclusion: Today didn't go down too well.

Currently Listening To: "Party's Over" by Son of Dork

Sand and I gave Divya the most 'unique' birthday present she has ever received.
A plate of nasi lemak.
(:
LOL.
I know. Awesome, no?

Haih. I'm thinking about something I shouldn't be thinking about. But I can't stop thinking about it anyway even though I tell myself to stop it. Lately I can't really sleep so I do this thing where I read and read and read until my eyes droops before I switch off the lights (this process usually ends at 3 something in the morning) and I've got to get up at 6am.
Yes, lack of sleep. I know.
Lack of food too.
This Saturday is Sash's sister's wedding. I've planned what I'm going to wear but I dono if I should wear it straight to tuition because I'm going to Sash's house right after that or not.

Urm....I don't really know what to say anymore. I've got a lot of things in my head that it's driving me off the bloody edge. Dammit whey.
Oh screw this shit, I'm going off to watch Russell Howard in Mock The Week.

"Cos I feel so mad,
Feel so angry,
Feel so callous,
So lost confused again.
Feel so cheap,
So used, unfaithful,
Let's start over."

Tagged and Tired

Currently listening To: "Anthem Part 2" by Blink 182

I've been tagged by Pn. Chris. -.-'
Yes, 'cher. I'll do it. But after summarising today's day..... Lol.

Woke up.
Got annoyed.
Hungry/sleepy.
Went to tuition. Tuition center was still locked up.

It wasn't funny at the time because I was pissed, had a sore throat and yeah. I found two nomads on the staircase though (a.k.a. Edward and Daniel). First up was maths. Unnnggghhh.....
Then Science. I seriously don't get the Science teacher. He finds the most annoying and stupid jokes amusing. Like he drew a circle on the white board (we were learning about the eye) and he asked what did it look like. Some guys from the back answered, "Ball."
Then he said, "Yes. But not yours."
-.-"
Urm....okay.

Currently Listening To: "Sayonara" by The Operation M.D.

We had breakfast at the Grocery. Laughing and basically fooling around. Lol. Then we had Geography. Again, I couldn't pay attention. So I decided to draw instead. Urm....tried to draw Edward again but it didn't look nice so I erased it. I wrote his name over and over again instead. Lol. I came up with a theory!
He looks like a cute looking jaws.
Why?
Cos from the side profile, his smile is amazing. Head on, you can see his teeth is a bit layered-ish....like jaws! (:
Yes, permission to call me weird.

During BM, Aaron came up with something random.

'What is your prediction for the future?'
He started of by writing:

'2020 - *something something* (I honestly forgot)
- Baizura will become a supermodel and win under the category, 'World's Thinnest Woman'.'
And it went on and on until year 2027. It was really funny actually. Wish I copied it down but yeah.



Currently Listening To: "Gangsta's Paradise" by Coolio

Then had lunch at Pan Cafe. The foot long sausage looked weird. It was placed in a smiley face. Wedges in the middle and coleslaw at the top of the plate. Like a smiling cyclops. o.O
I pity Edward. Aaron poured two packets of sugar into his plain water.
"You need more sugar Edward!" Aaron exclaimed.
Then after we ate, Edward was teaching me Geography using his cabonara sauce and a soaked tissue inside it (yeah, I know).

Currently Listening To: "Pain" by Three Days Grace

The total amount of our lunch? RM72 something....
I know! I went.... o.O
There were only seven of us.
So yeah, the rest of the day went by rather....blaaahhh....

Currently Listening To: "Easy Target" by Blink 182

So now, onto Pn. Chris's tag.

3 Golden Rules. state 15 weird things/ habits/ little known facts about yourself. The 10 people I tag are to then to follow my footsteps and write their own 15 weird things/habits and little known facts.. No tag backs.

1) I like the smell of books.
2) I tend to remember facts from Friends. A lot.
3) I'm freaked out being in a hotel room on my own.
4) I nearly drowned when I was eleven.
5) I have a crush on this guy from tuition.
6) I think the Mona Lisa looks weird. THERE, I've said it.
7) I sometimes have an imaginary concert in my bedroom where I play the lead on air-guitar.
8) I've once spent the whole night watching YouTube videos non-stop.
9) I HATE being called 'Coconat'.
10) I don't like peanutbutter but I love PB&J
11) I only RECENTLY found out where all the five continents of the world are located.
12) I tore off the head of a Barbie doll before just to see what's inside.
13) I always need to wipe the rim of tin cans before drinking from it.
14) I'm afraid of swimming in pools where the water level is more than 8 feet.
15) I like sleeping in sleeping bags.

Tagging: Sandra Soh, Mahirah, Crazy Daisy, Divya, Melissa (once you get ur blog back!), Robin, Trisher, Andrea, Nisha and Najwa. (:




Daniel, 'smoking' on a Rocky stick.



OMG! Edward actually ATE lunch!! See how skinny he is?!?!



Edward's plain water which Aaron poured sugar into.

Breakfast-ing at the Grocery.



She. Me. Us. Breakfast. Grocery. =P

"I tried to be perfect but nothing was worth it,
I don't believe it makes me real,
I thought it'd be easy but no one believe me,
I meant all the things I said."

Literally A Crash Course

Currently Listening To: "Dare You To Move" by Switchfoot

OMG.

Crash course?
It literally was one. Note to self: Bring helmets and seatbelts tomorrow.

So what happened? Let's take a look shall we?

6.30am
Woke up. Had a sore throat. Rolled out of bed and didn't realize I was sleeping on the edge and actually fell out of bed. -.-
Took a shower. Spent ages trying figure out what to wear. Finally settled with that green hoodie shirt thing that reminds me of urm....whatshername from One Tree Hill....season 5. That singer....yeah whatever her name was.
LOL.

7.45am
Sandra texted me in the car, 10 minutes before I arrived. I was freaking out in the car because I thought I was going to be late. Turned out I wasn't. And guess which surprise guest decided to turn up for the crash course?
No. Not him. He didn't come. I'm not going to say I wasn't a bit put out by this but I was happy at the same time because I'm going to be able to spend my whole week with DIVYA (yes, she was that unexpected guest), SANDRA and BAIZURA.
Was a little sad that Myra didn't manage to come but happy for her because I know her someone is going to turn up for the seminar that she's going to. (:

Currently Listening To: "Say Goodbye" by Skillet

8.30am
Surviving through Maths. Miss Nirmala wasn't teaching us. =( Albert came late. Edward sat in front of me. He looked sort of cute because he looked like he was drowning in his hoodie which was typically too big for him. That guy is too skinny. -.-"
I could literally SEE his back bone creeping up to his neck. I mean, the knobbly parts. I had an urge to touch it but I didn't. Lol.

10am
The Science teacher must be on crack or something because he managed to cram ALL the form 1 syllabus and a bit of form 2 into a lesson which lasted only for an hour and a half. It was like watching a video on fast forward or something. Plus he was so 'violent', he was erasing the whiteboard like he wanted to punch someone. o.O

11am
Had a break. The weather couldn't make up it's mind. First it rained. Then the sun was rising. Then it rained again. Baizura and Sandra were wondering how are we ever going to go down to eat if it was raining but Divya and I were too hungry we just ran in the rain to get to the other side of the building towards this cafe called 'Pan's Cafe'. It was extremely funny because while we were running my flip flop come off that I had to run back and get it and I got soaked in the process. Lol. Wish I had a picture of that.

Currently Listening To: "Buried Myself Alive" by The Used

So Divya, Baizura and I got to Pan's Cafe first. We waited for Sandra, Edward and Albert before we ordered. Ohmygod. The food service there was so slow.
Or maybe we just didn't have enough time?
We did only have half an hour after all.
Anyway, our half an hour was up by the time mine, Sandra's and Baizura's pan cakes arrived. It was funny eating there because suddenly out of no where, the waiter placed a plate of nasi lemak in front of Divya and she was like, "O.O"
And then Albert went: "That's mine."
LOL.
Divya's face was so funny.

11.45am
Mr. Arumugam (I'm not sure if I spelt his name correctly) went all, "Natasha, you're late!" when we came back up for Geography.
Me: "But teacher! Blame the pan cakes!! They made us late."
Lol. So yeah, I was hardly paying attention during Geo because teacher was teaching the format of the exam paper (which he has done so twice before this. Well for different classes of course) and then teaching us the basic skills for Geography. Like counting time, making a bar chart, reading coordinates and all that stuff that I can't be bothered with anymore.

Currently Listening To: "Kokomo" by The Beach Boys

1.30pm
Then after that was BM but Cikgu Suhaimi came in half an hour late. He thought the class was at 1.30pm not 1pm. So guess what he did? He cut off our lunch break! Well obviously we were all complaining because c'mon....the classroom was cold. We were tired and hungry. It's a holiday. We treasure our breaks. =P
Cikgu Suhaimi said that he was going to be teaching Sejarah as well and we all went, "What happened to Mr. Saravanan?"
Because honestly, he's the best History teacher I've had since form 1 with Cik Tan. According to Cikgu Suhaimi he was busy and he couldn't come. -.-

2.45pm
Cikgu Suhaimi finally gave into our grumblings and allowed us to go out for fifteen minutes. Which of course we abused (lol) and came back in fifteen minutes late. Well, the rest of the class did. Divya, Baizura, Sandra and I stayed in class. Well we went down to this sundry shop called 'Grocery' and bought chocolates (or raisins in Sandra's case) and drinks and ate 'lunch' in class. It was funny because we were cam whoring and going all crazy.

3.30pm
I SO wasn't paying attention during History. For some reason, this giant headache locked itself in my mind and I couldn't get rid of it. So I ended up drawing the back of Edward's head and back on my paper instead of listening to teacher. Lol.

Currently Listening To: "Can't Be Saved" by Senses Fail

By English, I felt like someone had used my brains as the shuttlecock for the Olympic match between Lin Dan and Chong Wei (Lin Dan is so freakishly hot by the way =]). Seriously, I was having trouble breathing, my head felt heavy and I want to puke. I got even more annoyed when Prime drew a stupid alien joke on my English paper (which actually resembled a woman's boobs and vagina more than an alien) and if I had had the strength at that moment, I would've used my Taekwondo slap on him, like Sir Padi thought us. But I was too tired and pissed. The English teacher, Pn. Robitha (or is it spelt Robita?) wants us to wear name tags for our next class so that she'd know us. -.-
Uhhh....I'm just gonna wear my Interact badge. I'm too lazy to dig up last year's Hari K name tag that Sash made. Actually, I think I lost it. =/
Albert, Prime and Edward were being perverted in front of us while they filled in the blanks for this passage with their own porno-fied answers. It was sort of annoying really.
I really DON'T want to hear about men cycling naked.
Or women parading the latest 'nude fashion' in London, Milan and Paris.
Or the head of a fund raiser who was visiting a children's hospital having an orgy with a doctor and the patients there.
And even more stupid absurd stuff.

7pm
Just glad to be home. And guess what? Tomorrow?
Rinse and repeat for the next four more days.
And what's even more fun?
Tomorrow, Wednesday and Friday I've got to stay back until 10pm because we have Q&A classes that night.
And you thought we were going to be playing around this holidays, Pn. Mary.



My picture of Edward's back.



Lunch-ing with Sandra.



Diva DIVYA.



The cam whore and her 'mum'.



Dum dum dum. (:


"You've made a lasting impression,
And if it doesn't feel right,
Then I just can't go wrong.
I've been sleeping with the lights,
So if I wake up in the night,
Your picture is clearly in sight."

Of Tuition

Currently Listening To: "Ticket Outta Loserville" by Son of Dork

As I had predicted. I didn't pluck the courage to ask him if he was going for the crash course. I'm such a wimp. -.-
He gives me butterflies and it's stupid. Thankfully I sort of already understand Transformations and Rates, Ratios and Proportions for Science and Maths because I definitely KNOW I wasn't paying attention.
He looked so cute today. I think I had the bad case of 'stop and stare'. *sighs*

Currently Listening To: "Breathless" by The Corrs

This song is amazingly appropriate for the time being. OMG. Leslie changed his shirt today! Bravo Leslie!!
Lol. Because so far he's been wearing that blue checkered shirt thing for the last two weeks.....
But he didn't today. (:
Edward looked sad for some reason. Hmmm....Wonder what's wrong....
I was reading Pn. Chris's blog and I was wondering if I'd be able to have that student-teacher bond with her one of these days. It's funny I suppose. Because who would think that their teacher would turn into their friend?
Not some annoying aunty kind of thing you know, a really good friend.

Anyway, this guy is seriously taking over my thoughts. Talk about underage thinking. I thought I was going to hyperventilate when he walked into tuition today. I nearly screamed, well, I sort of did a little and Edward went, "Urm...what's wrong?"
"Nothing. Just remembered I sort of didn't finish Sejarah."
Nice save huh?

Currently Listening To: "Eddie's Song" by Son of Dork

I wonder why my playlist is addicted to James Bourne. It's the second SOD song of the night. Right, moving on......
Fasting tomorrow. Need to replace for missing last year. Not looking forward to waking up at 4.30am in the morning. I guess I'll be eating and watching Friends.
Chandler is my idol! (:
His stupid sarcastic remarks never fails to make me laugh.

Anyway, I'm going off to debate if I should add a certain someone on my WLM or not. I found him on Friendster. Ohmygawd....I'm turning into such a stalker. -.-

"Lately I'm not quite myself,
Maybe I do need some help,
Trust my confusion,
Trust my delusions."

Of A Saturday Morning

Currently Listening To: "I Hate (Everything About You)" by Three Days Grace

My cat wouldn't shut up this morning. She's supposed to be quarantined in my room because my Mum and both my sisters have asthma. It's really sad actually. My Mum has a super-sensitive nose and she's a cat lover. Where is the justice in this? Of all the Godly things that could happen.

Speaking of God. Apparently something amazing happened in Indonesia. A dome from a mosque removed itself and flew to a new mosque in the making. A divine act? Bogus? Real? Aliens really do exist?
Who knows?

Today is Saturday. Should be seeing him today. (: I seriously need to get over this dude. Because.....well just because. It's unhealthy.
Urgh....we're supposed to be getting our maths results from last week's test today. Noooo.....I can bet you he'll do better than me. He ALWAYS gets at least two or three marks higher than me. For a guy who can't see the whiteboard well, he's pretty smart. =B
Lol.

Trisher!!! Today. Tuition. 2.30pm~7.00pm. Don't forget!! Oh crap. I haven't done Mr. Saravanan's work!!!! The stupid Perak paper or something. La la la...
It's 9.11am. It's still too early to think about History.
I am busy downloading songs because my Dad has finally allowed me to use his account which has Limewire in it. I know. How lame is it that my account doesn't have Limewire but my Dad's one has?
Apparently he says he doesn't want me to listen to music too much because of exams.
Haih.
Anyway, I've got about another 15 minutes on the computer.
Then I need to go and figure out what to wear for tuition later. Gah.

Of Everything

Currently Listening To: "Crash and Burn" by Busted

No, no, no. You can stop having that funeral you were about to have for abandoned blogs, I'm back. Not that I've gone anywhere.
PMR has been stressing the crap outta me. People are really, REALLY beginning to pressure me from all directions.
Alright, I know Miss Nirmala said that it's good to be pressurized because then we're diamonds. Why?
Because diamonds are just coals that works well under pressure.
Ha ha ha.
Interesting fact teacher but no, I'm sorry. I think I need a break or I will literally throw up everything that you and all the teachers in my school have thought me.

So, I'm sort of done with some of my exams. There's still some coming up after the holworkdays though.

Currently Listening To: "Fat Lip" by Sum 41

Speaking of Sum 41. There's this guy in my tuition place and he looks like a Chinese version of Deryck Whibley. *sighs* Sooooo hot. Wish he knew I existed though. T.T
Yeah, yeah. The sad life of Natasha Nadiah.
When she wears a tudung, she's the invisible woman.
Geez, I'll never forgive my parents for this. It's like they've hacked away half of me or something. I know, the outside doesn't matter as much. But I just happen to feel weird. Especially in tuition when there are a lot of SA people there and they're sort of part of the 'popular' group in school and I just feel so lame compared to them.
I can literally HEAR you people telling me that I'm being immature.
I've mentioned this before: My blog. MY opinions.

Currently Listening to: "Falling In Love" by McFly

Their new album is amazing. They've changed but at the same time stayed the same. Awww...it's sort of sweet to think that the McFly guys have 'grown up'. Lol. Well, if any of you still remember the '5 Colours in Her Hair' video clip, I think we'd all agree....Old or new. It's McFly. (:
The other day I bumped into Pn. Puteri at the teacher's room. She asked me a question which I never expected.
"Natasha, do you still like Dougie Poynter?"
o.O
She pronounced Dougie's name wrong though but it didn't matter. I was just surprised she remembered. She used to teach me in form 2 and I couldn't stop going on and on about McFly to everyone and anyone who would listen. Lol.

You know, sometimes I feel completely childish. Like, I've been reading my friend's blogs lately. And they seem to have this similarity about them. They're all either about politics or something serious/useful or it's just their own opinions but their opinions are good. My blog posts on the other hand is like.....char kueh teow.

Currently Listening To: "Best of Me" by The Starting Line

Most of my blogs are about random useless things that no one cares about. I guess I can't help it.
I DON'T CARE about Anwar. He can declare whatever he wants.
I DON'T CARE about PAS protesting about random shit. They're a political party. If they didn't protest for something or other, they wouldn't be one.
As far as I'm concerned, all these people, are just ruining Malaysia's name in front of the world. I mean, could you imagine, people in other countries are opening their papers and guess what's splayed out in front of the whole world?
Malaysia STUPID political issues. Why? Because none of them want to compromise and JUST GROW UP.
UiTM for example. Okay, so it's an all Malay school. But what's so bad about opening it to other races? GAWD. I shall quote Myra, 'Create new. Destroy old.'
It's the 21st century. It's Malaysia. I thought Malaysia was supposed to be famous for it's unity?
So what's with this stupid protest about not letting other races into UiTM?
Bloody hypocrites.

Currently Listening To: "I'm Gay" by Bowling For Soup

And you know what else? By protesting this random crap, other countries are going to think that WE'RE racists and that's how they're going to treat us in THEIR countries. What about us students whom have no intention on going to U here? Maybe we had dreams since we were four years old to go overseas but we can't for fear of getting discriminated?

Currently Listening To: "Sick" by Son of Dork

T.T I don't get Malaysia anymore. No wonder people are migrating overseas. Anyway, on a lighter note. My cat is going to be staying with me until Sash comes back from Kelantan. The reason why we had to send her to Sash's house in the first place was because my sisters and Mum have asthma and my cat is a Persian who sheds a lot. So yeah. ='(
But at least I'll have her for a week.
Speaking of which, I need to find for her litter box and food. She'll be staying in my room for the whole week. I know. How sad is that? A cat needs to roam free! Not cooped up in a room. I feel like the mean owner in that 'Pertemuan' story from 'Anak Bumi Tercinta' book. Speaking of Kelantan, my Dad says that we'll be going back there for Raya. =S
Uhhh.....PMR is a week after that. How am I suppose to enjoy my Raya?

Currently Listening To: "Remembering Sunday" by All Time Low

Anyway, I was reading Robin's blog and he was going on about how lifeless his life has become thanks to PMR. You're not the only one my friend. Guess what we've got for the hols?
PMR Crash Course.
8am until 6pm. Monday to Friday.
That's not the end. On Tuesday, Wednesday and Friday I've got Q&A classes at the same tuition place at night. So on those days I'll be at Miss Nirmala's from 8am until 10pm.
Wheeee....
We should bring tents and stuff and just sleep there.
I hope he comes.....
I was planning to ask him tomorrow but I doubt I'll pluck up the courage to actually ask. I've only said 'hi' once to him before. He just said 'hi' back. I doubt he even knows my name. T.T
Myra? Come for Saturday class! Pleeeeease?

Anyway, I'm off to YouTube. I have the urge to watch Charlie. (:

"I wanna know if I could be,
Someone to turn to,
That could never hurt you."