Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
Have you ever felt so angry and pissed at the same time lost, bewildered and sad? Well that's how I'm feeling right now.
Yes, someone can feel all those at once.
Screw this shit.
I can't even GO anywhere or TALK to anyone because NO ONE GIVES A FLYING FUCK.
Saturday, 31 May 2008
Friday, 30 May 2008
Heart of Glass
Well, I spent most of my day out today. Yay me. If not, I'd probably still be rotting away at home. I babysat Baizura today. Lol.
Okay, fine, I know the term 'baby-sitting' is weird since Bai is after all, older than me....
Technically. By a couple of months. So first we sat watching Zathura and imagined what it'd be like to actually play a game like that. I mean, it'd be really cool!
Wouldn't it?
Okay, minus the part where you get chased by a killer psychotic robot who wants to eat your brains. And of course the meteor shower. And the Zargons that wants to eat you. Urm...yeah. Not so bad right?
Lol.
Then we went to the hairdressers. Bai was doing her hair while I sat in the other chair looking like some lost person. The guy who washed Bai's hair was sort of hot. I mean, he's......quite okay looking. You know?
For someone who has spiky blue hair. (:
He reminded me of Christian a bit but of course, Christian's hair positively defines gravity no one could possibly have the same hairstyle.
Bai did this treatment to her hair....they had to put a bag over her hair which had little holes in them and the bag was connected to a machine that let out steam. Honestly, I think I nearly peed in my pants from all the laughter. It was just so funny. =')
I'm sorry Bai but I'm still going to stick with the, "You look like an Arabian King whose smoking weed and the smoke just went to your head."
(:
I was bored. And waiting for Baizura to finish getting her hair blow-dried.
This is what happens when you annoy a cat too much. Lol. Okay, it doesn't hurt much but I was still surprised when I saw it there. I didn't even realized Kit (Baizura's cat) scratched me. o.o
We went to Giant after that. Had lunch at 4.30pm at Burger King. Then went to Starbucks for dessert (lollipops). I wish I had enough money to buy that lemonade drink though. But no matter! Because I spent my money on something else and I'm proud of it.....
Can you guess?
*drum roll please*
YES!!!! Ohmygod. I have never been happier. Well, okay, I'd be happier if I found 'Does This Look Infected?' instead but the chances of it being sold in Malaysia is pretty slim. Unless I check somewhere like MPH or something but that would be for another day. Yeah. I'm a heavy collector. One of these days, if I have money to waste. I'll go buy Blink 182's 'Take Off Your Pants And Jacket' despite already having most of the songs from that album. What? It's the only album that I don't have. My collection will be complete after that!
I swear.
Well okay, I don't have Buddha, Flyswatter and Cheshire Cat but those two are freaking rare and there's no way in Hell that they'll be sold in Malaysia.
Besides, I prefer Blink 182 with Travis Barker instead of Scott Raynor. No offence but he sort of freaks me out. Scott Raynor, not Travis Barker. The only reason I'd be freaked out by Travis is if I saw him shirtless *again*. With the amount of tattoos that guy has.....I see no point of him even wearing a shirt.
Anyway, I'm trying to figure out my plans for the next four days. It's either going to be filled with some random shopping trips and sleep overs or going somewhere for vacations. I have noooo idea to be perfectly honest. And you know how much that bothers me when I don't know the plans to something. Well, plans that involves me anyway.
There's no solution
Give me truth to my conviction
Is my own confusion
Reality or fiction
Am I out of my mind?
Okay, fine, I know the term 'baby-sitting' is weird since Bai is after all, older than me....
Technically. By a couple of months. So first we sat watching Zathura and imagined what it'd be like to actually play a game like that. I mean, it'd be really cool!
Wouldn't it?
Okay, minus the part where you get chased by a killer psychotic robot who wants to eat your brains. And of course the meteor shower. And the Zargons that wants to eat you. Urm...yeah. Not so bad right?
Lol.
Then we went to the hairdressers. Bai was doing her hair while I sat in the other chair looking like some lost person. The guy who washed Bai's hair was sort of hot. I mean, he's......quite okay looking. You know?
For someone who has spiky blue hair. (:
He reminded me of Christian a bit but of course, Christian's hair positively defines gravity no one could possibly have the same hairstyle.
Bai did this treatment to her hair....they had to put a bag over her hair which had little holes in them and the bag was connected to a machine that let out steam. Honestly, I think I nearly peed in my pants from all the laughter. It was just so funny. =')
I'm sorry Bai but I'm still going to stick with the, "You look like an Arabian King whose smoking weed and the smoke just went to your head."
(:
I was bored. And waiting for Baizura to finish getting her hair blow-dried.
This is what happens when you annoy a cat too much. Lol. Okay, it doesn't hurt much but I was still surprised when I saw it there. I didn't even realized Kit (Baizura's cat) scratched me. o.o
We went to Giant after that. Had lunch at 4.30pm at Burger King. Then went to Starbucks for dessert (lollipops). I wish I had enough money to buy that lemonade drink though. But no matter! Because I spent my money on something else and I'm proud of it.....
Can you guess?
*drum roll please*
YES!!!! Ohmygod. I have never been happier. Well, okay, I'd be happier if I found 'Does This Look Infected?' instead but the chances of it being sold in Malaysia is pretty slim. Unless I check somewhere like MPH or something but that would be for another day. Yeah. I'm a heavy collector. One of these days, if I have money to waste. I'll go buy Blink 182's 'Take Off Your Pants And Jacket' despite already having most of the songs from that album. What? It's the only album that I don't have. My collection will be complete after that!
I swear.
Well okay, I don't have Buddha, Flyswatter and Cheshire Cat but those two are freaking rare and there's no way in Hell that they'll be sold in Malaysia.
Besides, I prefer Blink 182 with Travis Barker instead of Scott Raynor. No offence but he sort of freaks me out. Scott Raynor, not Travis Barker. The only reason I'd be freaked out by Travis is if I saw him shirtless *again*. With the amount of tattoos that guy has.....I see no point of him even wearing a shirt.
Anyway, I'm trying to figure out my plans for the next four days. It's either going to be filled with some random shopping trips and sleep overs or going somewhere for vacations. I have noooo idea to be perfectly honest. And you know how much that bothers me when I don't know the plans to something. Well, plans that involves me anyway.
There's no solution
Give me truth to my conviction
Is my own confusion
Reality or fiction
Am I out of my mind?
Thursday, 29 May 2008
Falling from grace
I'm feeling sort of nostalgic.
Mmhmm....It's probably got to do with going to Baizura's friendster profile and looking at the picture of McFly she has under her 'Who I want To Meet'.
I miss those days.....
When I was just McFly obsessed and nothing else mattered. I mean, this year it's.....different. There's a hell lot more things I've got to care about and I don't think I can juggle all of them. Plus with my new found love for Sum 41. I mean, okay.....So Sum 41 had always been around since before McFly but I guess I just decided to take it further this year. Besides.....I had to admit this but.....McFly has changed. I know, a true fan wouldn't care about that but I guess.....
I'm just one of those few people who hates changes. If I could wish for anything, I'd wish for Doc Emmett to arrive in DeLorean and take me back to last year so I can just re-live those moments. However short it may be.....
Anyway, lately I've been lost in my own little vampire world.
Okay I'm bored....Bored...BORED...
I'm updating my Friendster and MySpace profile. It's funny how MySpace seem to be the sole reason I went online last year. Well, MySpace and McFly. These days it's.....blogging...Sum 41 and talking to people of the world. Lol.
I made that sound uber important when honestly.....I think the most frequent person I talk to these days who isn't in Malaysia is Taylor Barclay and Crazy Daisy. Yes you my little darlings.
So...it's about to rain like crazy. I might as well go....Ngeh...
I'll be there for you when the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you like I've been there before
I'll be there for you cos your there for me too
Mmhmm....It's probably got to do with going to Baizura's friendster profile and looking at the picture of McFly she has under her 'Who I want To Meet'.
I miss those days.....
When I was just McFly obsessed and nothing else mattered. I mean, this year it's.....different. There's a hell lot more things I've got to care about and I don't think I can juggle all of them. Plus with my new found love for Sum 41. I mean, okay.....So Sum 41 had always been around since before McFly but I guess I just decided to take it further this year. Besides.....I had to admit this but.....McFly has changed. I know, a true fan wouldn't care about that but I guess.....
I'm just one of those few people who hates changes. If I could wish for anything, I'd wish for Doc Emmett to arrive in DeLorean and take me back to last year so I can just re-live those moments. However short it may be.....
Anyway, lately I've been lost in my own little vampire world.
Okay I'm bored....Bored...BORED...
I'm updating my Friendster and MySpace profile. It's funny how MySpace seem to be the sole reason I went online last year. Well, MySpace and McFly. These days it's.....blogging...Sum 41 and talking to people of the world. Lol.
I made that sound uber important when honestly.....I think the most frequent person I talk to these days who isn't in Malaysia is Taylor Barclay and Crazy Daisy. Yes you my little darlings.
So...it's about to rain like crazy. I might as well go....Ngeh...
I'll be there for you when the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you like I've been there before
I'll be there for you cos your there for me too
Tuesday, 27 May 2008
I might be too late
Midnight.
The bewitching hour.
Okay, look. I'm going to go straight to the point here. I'm sorry. I never meant to hurt you in any way. I know, to you, this may just seem like words. Nothing more. I know that sorry might not even cure this. But there's nothing left to say, is there?
I realize I'm the wrong one here and I swear, it's not easy for me to admit this. I guess my jealousy got in the way of things and it just overwhelmed me. Killing me inside. Killing the Natasha that you used to know. I can't guarantee that I've gotten control of that feeling because honestly, you might not see it. But I see it. You're pretty, talented and smart. No, don't compare exam results in this. Because exam results are not going to take us that far in life. Who gives a damn about how many 'A's and stuff.....
It doesn't matter. You're smart in a sense of, if you were forced to live on your own. You'd survive. I would most probably crumble and die.
I'm jealous in the way, how you're friendlier and people would rather go to you than to me. Who would want to go to a moody dragon lady anyway?
Look. I don't want to end our friendship. Because deep down, I still care about you. I may have changed but that doesn't mean I can never return. Maybe I'll be better this time around. I don't know. It's your choice. I'm sorry I never told you my problems and I'm sorry you felt left out too. I'm sorry you had to find out what's been bothering me through someone else. But the reason I chose to not tell you my problems was because you seemed caught up with your own problems, I didn't want to add anything else onto your plate. But I guess I forgot a vital thing......
We're best friends and no matter how much problems we have, we'll drop anything for our best friends.
I'm not trying to ruin your life. That was never my intention. I was just......insecure. But I've took some time and I've matured. I think. I know I give advice to other people when they have the same problem, but it's just harder for me to follow my own advice. It's never easy to follow your own advice. I know that from someone who has been giving me advice since two years ago. But I'm not going to use that as my excuse. It's my own fault, I know. I should've just tried harder to listen to myself.
I don't want to give up on us. You said it was my choice. And this is my honest answer: I don't want to let you go and I don't want to give up just like this.
I'm not going to walk away from you and I'm not going to walk out on what we have. Sure we only got close to each other last year, but you were there for me through so much last year. I'm not going to forget that. And I think, I was there for you too.
I know that somewhere at the back of your mind, there's a little box and inside that box, I know you still cherish all those moments we spent together. All the laughter and fun. Just so you know, those moments......I'll never forget them. They're the reason I still go on.
So because of that and so much more, I'm not going to let this end in a car crash. I realize I may have been intolerable the last few days or weeks. I realize I may have been a complete bitch. I agree, I was selfish. I never thought about the way I was acting might affect you, might affect us.
I know that now.
I can't say much anymore because there really isn't anything left to be said......except.....
I'm sorry.
Please don't walk out on me Mye, I need you.
I miss you.
I love you.
I will break your heart
I will bring you down
But I will have to say
I'm sorry, it's all I can say
You mean so much
And I'd fix all that I've done if I could start again
I'd throw it all away to the shadow of regrets
And you would have the best of me.
The bewitching hour.
Okay, look. I'm going to go straight to the point here. I'm sorry. I never meant to hurt you in any way. I know, to you, this may just seem like words. Nothing more. I know that sorry might not even cure this. But there's nothing left to say, is there?
I realize I'm the wrong one here and I swear, it's not easy for me to admit this. I guess my jealousy got in the way of things and it just overwhelmed me. Killing me inside. Killing the Natasha that you used to know. I can't guarantee that I've gotten control of that feeling because honestly, you might not see it. But I see it. You're pretty, talented and smart. No, don't compare exam results in this. Because exam results are not going to take us that far in life. Who gives a damn about how many 'A's and stuff.....
It doesn't matter. You're smart in a sense of, if you were forced to live on your own. You'd survive. I would most probably crumble and die.
I'm jealous in the way, how you're friendlier and people would rather go to you than to me. Who would want to go to a moody dragon lady anyway?
Look. I don't want to end our friendship. Because deep down, I still care about you. I may have changed but that doesn't mean I can never return. Maybe I'll be better this time around. I don't know. It's your choice. I'm sorry I never told you my problems and I'm sorry you felt left out too. I'm sorry you had to find out what's been bothering me through someone else. But the reason I chose to not tell you my problems was because you seemed caught up with your own problems, I didn't want to add anything else onto your plate. But I guess I forgot a vital thing......
We're best friends and no matter how much problems we have, we'll drop anything for our best friends.
I'm not trying to ruin your life. That was never my intention. I was just......insecure. But I've took some time and I've matured. I think. I know I give advice to other people when they have the same problem, but it's just harder for me to follow my own advice. It's never easy to follow your own advice. I know that from someone who has been giving me advice since two years ago. But I'm not going to use that as my excuse. It's my own fault, I know. I should've just tried harder to listen to myself.
I don't want to give up on us. You said it was my choice. And this is my honest answer: I don't want to let you go and I don't want to give up just like this.
I'm not going to walk away from you and I'm not going to walk out on what we have. Sure we only got close to each other last year, but you were there for me through so much last year. I'm not going to forget that. And I think, I was there for you too.
I know that somewhere at the back of your mind, there's a little box and inside that box, I know you still cherish all those moments we spent together. All the laughter and fun. Just so you know, those moments......I'll never forget them. They're the reason I still go on.
So because of that and so much more, I'm not going to let this end in a car crash. I realize I may have been intolerable the last few days or weeks. I realize I may have been a complete bitch. I agree, I was selfish. I never thought about the way I was acting might affect you, might affect us.
I know that now.
I can't say much anymore because there really isn't anything left to be said......except.....
I'm sorry.
Please don't walk out on me Mye, I need you.
I miss you.
I love you.
I will break your heart
I will bring you down
But I will have to say
I'm sorry, it's all I can say
You mean so much
And I'd fix all that I've done if I could start again
I'd throw it all away to the shadow of regrets
And you would have the best of me.
Monday, 26 May 2008
Niche
Russell Brand's hairstyle reminds of when Helena Bonham Carter was acting in Sweeney Todd.
Hmm...
I wonder who inspired who.
Actually Russell's character reminds me of Helena a lot.....but let's not talk about it. Mrs. Lovett sort of freaks the hell out of me for some reason.
Hot cakes anyone?
O.M.G.
I am ferociously hungry. When I say ferociously, I had an image of a tiger killing a deer but that a little too morbid. The night is still young! Sort of.
Anyway, today's public speaking workshop was something.......unexpected. Okay, so maybe I wasn't expecting a lecturer so old but dear God, she looked 40. Though it did got a little boring somewhere in the middle. Yes, we get it. You're a world-known celebrity who has done all sorts of things for the country and is one of the country's role models.
But you don't have to point it out to us every five minutes.
I've been watching Skins on YouTube. Honestly? I prefer it than the 'My Family' sitcom. But there's a difference isn't there?
For one.... I can always find the next episode. =.='
Do you know how irritating it can get if you've spent the last fifteen minutes trying to find for the continuation of a particular episode? They should have some sort of systematic order or something in YouTube. I don't get why when it comes to something like One Tree Hill, everything is there within an instant. But something that's slightly off the map?
Oh dear Lord.....
I guess you can tell I'm bored out of my mind? Charlie hasn't been making any new videos lately. I wonder what he's up to......
I wonder what Sum 41 are up to. I think they're on tour. Somewhere.....
I JUST REALIZED WHO RUSSELL BRAND REMINDS ME OFF!!!!
He reminds me of Captain Jack Sparrow. (:
LOL
"Why is the rum always gone?"
Rum.
Rum.
Rum.
Red rum.
=)
I love this so much: 'red rum'
Stephen King is a freakin' genius! Considering, if Stephen King was the original finder of it. Lol. No, I haven't checked my facts and I can't be bothered to despite having yes, the computer at my fingertips. It's weird how they say 'having *insert word* at your fingertips'. I mean, is that even possible? Literally.
Like for example....
Mum: "Nat, what have you gotten there at your fingertips?"
Natasha: "It's the globe Mum. My teacher said the world should always be at my fingertips."
Mum: *nods* "Okay. Will you help me with the dishes now?"
Natasha: "I can't."
Mum: "And why not?"
Natasha: "Because I've super-glued my fingertips to the world."
Unlikely to happen but you never know!
Anyway....I should really try to limit myself when I'm on the computer but you and I both know that's never going to happen. I'm an Internet addict and I'm proud of it! (:
But I've got a long day tomorrow. At least.....I think so. o.o
That's the difference between my Mum and I. I like to know everything that's scheduled for tomorrow so that I can plan everything and fit it nicely into those cute little boxes they have in those diaries and my Mum would rather know what to do.....five minutes before the actual thing.
Which is kind of hypocritical really, because I need to give her one week's notice before my friends are allowed to come over to the house. =.='
Hmm...
I wonder who inspired who.
Actually Russell's character reminds me of Helena a lot.....but let's not talk about it. Mrs. Lovett sort of freaks the hell out of me for some reason.
Hot cakes anyone?
O.M.G.
I am ferociously hungry. When I say ferociously, I had an image of a tiger killing a deer but that a little too morbid. The night is still young! Sort of.
Anyway, today's public speaking workshop was something.......unexpected. Okay, so maybe I wasn't expecting a lecturer so old but dear God, she looked 40. Though it did got a little boring somewhere in the middle. Yes, we get it. You're a world-known celebrity who has done all sorts of things for the country and is one of the country's role models.
But you don't have to point it out to us every five minutes.
I've been watching Skins on YouTube. Honestly? I prefer it than the 'My Family' sitcom. But there's a difference isn't there?
For one.... I can always find the next episode. =.='
Do you know how irritating it can get if you've spent the last fifteen minutes trying to find for the continuation of a particular episode? They should have some sort of systematic order or something in YouTube. I don't get why when it comes to something like One Tree Hill, everything is there within an instant. But something that's slightly off the map?
Oh dear Lord.....
I guess you can tell I'm bored out of my mind? Charlie hasn't been making any new videos lately. I wonder what he's up to......
I wonder what Sum 41 are up to. I think they're on tour. Somewhere.....
I JUST REALIZED WHO RUSSELL BRAND REMINDS ME OFF!!!!
He reminds me of Captain Jack Sparrow. (:
LOL
"Why is the rum always gone?"
Rum.
Rum.
Rum.
Red rum.
=)
I love this so much: 'red rum'
Stephen King is a freakin' genius! Considering, if Stephen King was the original finder of it. Lol. No, I haven't checked my facts and I can't be bothered to despite having yes, the computer at my fingertips. It's weird how they say 'having *insert word* at your fingertips'. I mean, is that even possible? Literally.
Like for example....
Mum: "Nat, what have you gotten there at your fingertips?"
Natasha: "It's the globe Mum. My teacher said the world should always be at my fingertips."
Mum: *nods* "Okay. Will you help me with the dishes now?"
Natasha: "I can't."
Mum: "And why not?"
Natasha: "Because I've super-glued my fingertips to the world."
Unlikely to happen but you never know!
Anyway....I should really try to limit myself when I'm on the computer but you and I both know that's never going to happen. I'm an Internet addict and I'm proud of it! (:
But I've got a long day tomorrow. At least.....I think so. o.o
That's the difference between my Mum and I. I like to know everything that's scheduled for tomorrow so that I can plan everything and fit it nicely into those cute little boxes they have in those diaries and my Mum would rather know what to do.....five minutes before the actual thing.
Which is kind of hypocritical really, because I need to give her one week's notice before my friends are allowed to come over to the house. =.='
"This story here concerns Ian Huntley practising witchcraft in his prison cell, alright? And look, when I read that I thought what is the point of that story right? Because I, like most of us here, made up my mind about Ian Huntley when he killed those children. WHAT? Ian Huntley is practising witchcraft?!? Oh you're joking."
Dawn
What in anything vampire worthy am I doing here at god forsaking 6.48am?
I don't exactly know. My alarm rang at 6.15am telling me to get up. So I did. I bathed. And now here I am stuck staring at the computer.
Oh that's right!
I've got this public speaking workshop to go to. =.=
On a holiday.
In the morning.
Well, parts of me are looking forward. But some still wish they're in bed. I am currently drinking Ribena (yes, very vampire-like indeed) and waiting for one of my parents to send me. I have no idea who. I thought it'd be my Mum but she's still asleep. True we only have to be in school by like 8. But there's always a friggin' jam on LDP and it takes ages to get to PJ.
You know that vampire 'Hellsing'? Yeah. He freaks me out a little. Not that I usually get freaked out by vampires but he's one of those few people I wouldn't want to meet in the middle of the night. Which is ironic considering the fact that he's a vampire therefore the only time I get to see him is at night. =.=
Don't bother asking why I'm obsessed with vampires right now. I've always been. But I just haven't talked about them a lot. For some reason.....
Baizura tried getting Albert to listen to NLT last night. As per usual, he still refuses to listen anything out of his what I like to call, 'comfort zone'. But maybe I'm being a little harsh. So the guy doesn't like the kind of songs that usually keeps me alive..... Big deal la. *sighs* Still.....it'd be nice if he had some tolerance for Sum 41 and Blink 182. Rather than nothing.
Right, I should get going.
I find it ironic how I'm able to type about vampires at the break of dawn.
Ha.
Ha.
Ha.
You don't have to pray for me
Cause I'm not the one to blame
Can't wait to see
You burning down in flames
I don't exactly know. My alarm rang at 6.15am telling me to get up. So I did. I bathed. And now here I am stuck staring at the computer.
Oh that's right!
I've got this public speaking workshop to go to. =.=
On a holiday.
In the morning.
Well, parts of me are looking forward. But some still wish they're in bed. I am currently drinking Ribena (yes, very vampire-like indeed) and waiting for one of my parents to send me. I have no idea who. I thought it'd be my Mum but she's still asleep. True we only have to be in school by like 8. But there's always a friggin' jam on LDP and it takes ages to get to PJ.
You know that vampire 'Hellsing'? Yeah. He freaks me out a little. Not that I usually get freaked out by vampires but he's one of those few people I wouldn't want to meet in the middle of the night. Which is ironic considering the fact that he's a vampire therefore the only time I get to see him is at night. =.=
Don't bother asking why I'm obsessed with vampires right now. I've always been. But I just haven't talked about them a lot. For some reason.....
Baizura tried getting Albert to listen to NLT last night. As per usual, he still refuses to listen anything out of his what I like to call, 'comfort zone'. But maybe I'm being a little harsh. So the guy doesn't like the kind of songs that usually keeps me alive..... Big deal la. *sighs* Still.....it'd be nice if he had some tolerance for Sum 41 and Blink 182. Rather than nothing.
Right, I should get going.
I find it ironic how I'm able to type about vampires at the break of dawn.
Ha.
Ha.
Ha.
You don't have to pray for me
Cause I'm not the one to blame
Can't wait to see
You burning down in flames
Sunday, 25 May 2008
iStalk
So there I was in tuition....Stalking. Again. Lol. Would it be considered stalking even though the person is sort of your friend? And he knows you're taking the picture ANYWAY. Lol.
Moving on....
For some reason....
I'm feeling kinda.........
Left out.
Hmmm.....I don't want to go into details but I just am and I don't know. Here I was looking forward to holidays and hanging out with my best friends and stuff but lately....I think they're just having fun without me. I don't know. Maybe I'm over reacting. Or PMS-ing or whatever. But urgh....
I hate my damn logical side. For once, can I not give a damn about logic?
And now I'm not really doing much except listen to Boyzone. =.=
I'm going out later before tuition and I have to decide if I want to buy clothes or books. I hate making decisions like that. Because.....I'm not Christian Siriano. I don't always choose clothes over anything else. And I've been wanting to read Eclipse since like.....donkey years ago. I don't really know what to do now.....
I mean, I can't really go anywhere. Friends are an option but they're too busy having fun of their own. I don't really want to intrude.
My parents.....
Their too busy with their own problems. Believe me, I know.
So yeah.....blog.
But even here.....I don't know what to say anymore.
It's 12.30pm now. We're leaving the house soon. I guess I should go and bathe. Not looking forward to later. *sighs*
Don't know what went wrong
Don't know what's going on
Moving on....
For some reason....
I'm feeling kinda.........
Left out.
Hmmm.....I don't want to go into details but I just am and I don't know. Here I was looking forward to holidays and hanging out with my best friends and stuff but lately....I think they're just having fun without me. I don't know. Maybe I'm over reacting. Or PMS-ing or whatever. But urgh....
I hate my damn logical side. For once, can I not give a damn about logic?
And now I'm not really doing much except listen to Boyzone. =.=
I'm going out later before tuition and I have to decide if I want to buy clothes or books. I hate making decisions like that. Because.....I'm not Christian Siriano. I don't always choose clothes over anything else. And I've been wanting to read Eclipse since like.....donkey years ago. I don't really know what to do now.....
I mean, I can't really go anywhere. Friends are an option but they're too busy having fun of their own. I don't really want to intrude.
My parents.....
Their too busy with their own problems. Believe me, I know.
So yeah.....blog.
But even here.....I don't know what to say anymore.
It's 12.30pm now. We're leaving the house soon. I guess I should go and bathe. Not looking forward to later. *sighs*
Don't know what went wrong
Don't know what's going on
Saturday, 24 May 2008
I'm Getting Used That You're Just A Name Without A Face
It was one of those mornings today. The ones where you start of feeling like, 'omg. It's a brand new day, let's make the most of it! No tears, no frowns!'
But as it wears on, you feel your optimism slipping and by noon you're wondering why you never took those fire arms lessons so you'll have an actual license to kill.
in about two hours I've got to haul my ass to tuition and sit there for the next four hours and a half and I'm not looking forward to it.
Reason being? Well, let's just say.....life is currently fucked up at the moment and I'd rather just crawl into my own little dark hole with a year's supply of Time Out chocolate, Pepsi and vampire books.
I wish I could go back to form 2. Life was so much easier back then. Just Sash, Myra, Bai and McFly. Of course there was the occasional Busted, Son of Dork, Blink 182 but it was all good. Now it's like every little thing that I held dear to me, every little piece of the puzzle, had been thrown up into the sky. And every little piece are scattered all over the universe. I'm trying to pick them up and put them back together but they just won't fit. And like most of them, they've shattered beyond repair.
Where's Doc Emett when you need him? I want to climb into DeLorean and go back in time.
Blaring Through My Speakers: Can't Break Through by Busted
James Bourne is so right.
'Don't think I wanna know you
I'm tired of running after you
I won't send you sorry cards
Cos I don't need you.
I'm giving up and I'll never reminisce
I'll find a way
I'm getting over this
I let go in every way cos I don't need you.'
Stop being a bitch and let me know what's your problem okay? I can't deal with this on my own. I can't handle being the domineering one. Why is it that I'm the one that ends up getting hurt? Why does it seems like I love you more?
Why does it feels like I care more?
Why don't you ever notice what's wrong with me but I always do when it comes to you?
Why can't you open your bleeding eyes and realize that your fucking girlfriend needs you more?!
Can't stand being sick.
That is.....so....urgh......
You want to know something? For all the times that I've been sick, for all the times that I've been down, for all the times I've cried myself to sleep, refused to eat and puked blood......
I thought that maybe, if I saw you, things will be okay.
Hence I force myself to go to tuition, despite having thrown up blood. Despite feeling like TOTAL SHIT.
But it's different for you isn't it?
I don't mean as much.
But as it wears on, you feel your optimism slipping and by noon you're wondering why you never took those fire arms lessons so you'll have an actual license to kill.
in about two hours I've got to haul my ass to tuition and sit there for the next four hours and a half and I'm not looking forward to it.
Reason being? Well, let's just say.....life is currently fucked up at the moment and I'd rather just crawl into my own little dark hole with a year's supply of Time Out chocolate, Pepsi and vampire books.
I wish I could go back to form 2. Life was so much easier back then. Just Sash, Myra, Bai and McFly. Of course there was the occasional Busted, Son of Dork, Blink 182 but it was all good. Now it's like every little thing that I held dear to me, every little piece of the puzzle, had been thrown up into the sky. And every little piece are scattered all over the universe. I'm trying to pick them up and put them back together but they just won't fit. And like most of them, they've shattered beyond repair.
Where's Doc Emett when you need him? I want to climb into DeLorean and go back in time.
Blaring Through My Speakers: Can't Break Through by Busted
James Bourne is so right.
'Don't think I wanna know you
I'm tired of running after you
I won't send you sorry cards
Cos I don't need you.
I'm giving up and I'll never reminisce
I'll find a way
I'm getting over this
I let go in every way cos I don't need you.'
Stop being a bitch and let me know what's your problem okay? I can't deal with this on my own. I can't handle being the domineering one. Why is it that I'm the one that ends up getting hurt? Why does it seems like I love you more?
Why does it feels like I care more?
Why don't you ever notice what's wrong with me but I always do when it comes to you?
Why can't you open your bleeding eyes and realize that your fucking girlfriend needs you more?!
Can't stand being sick.
That is.....so....urgh......
You want to know something? For all the times that I've been sick, for all the times that I've been down, for all the times I've cried myself to sleep, refused to eat and puked blood......
I thought that maybe, if I saw you, things will be okay.
Hence I force myself to go to tuition, despite having thrown up blood. Despite feeling like TOTAL SHIT.
But it's different for you isn't it?
I don't mean as much.
"To die: to sleep: To sleep: perchance to dream: ay, there's the rub: For in that sleep of death what dreams may come?"
Friday, 23 May 2008
La La's!!
OMG
It's the holidays!
Sweet.
Lol. Anyway, yesterday was the craziest day I've had in a while. Everything was just so jammed pack it was like... o.o
First had school, obviously. Myra and I spent most of the school day talking about Christian Siriano. Shit, he is so HOT. Lol. And then after that, had Interact meeting. The last meeting of 07/08. ='( I'm going to miss Atoi!!! She's the best president ever.
-.-'
I sound like such a dork but moving on.... I'm stoked about installation. This is, if I get installed. God, I'm so nervous!!
Urgh....stupid thoughts!!!
Then straight after that, I drifted around the school for a while with Trisher because I was looking for Baizura and Myra. I actually have tennis that day and thought that Interact meeting would last until 4.30pm when tennis ends. But it didn't, so I went to tennis after that. Played tennis in my school uniform. LOL.
It was hilarious. I mean, c'mon.....
Then had tuition at 7.00pm till 8.30pm. And extra Maths class from 8.30pm to 10.00pm. Yeah, he didn't come. Again. I should really quit putting my hopes up so high.
I guess I've got to think of it this way, he has exams so yeah.....study study study.
But hey! When I had exams I still went. =.=
Urgh.
I came up with my own tagline during tuition though! Okay, so technically it's not mine. It's a mixture of two people's tagline but I joined them together and created something new so, TECHNICALLY it's mine......isn't it?
I took Paris Hilton's, "That hot."
And Christian Siriano's, "Fierce."
And came up with,
LOL. I am so lame. -.-'
But I like it. (: The tagline I meant, not the fact that I'm lame. I just have to deal with that fact though. Anyway, Miss Nirmala gave me and Baizura one of those rare compliments which made us smile like idiots long after tuition. Lol. I'm not going to go into details because it's a really long explanation but the conclusion is: She gave us a compliment!
Bahahaha....
So...... I'm bored out of my mind and I'm trying to figure out what should I wear tomorrow for tuition. As per usual. It's always like this weekend.
Okay, my neck hurts. I hate this chair. -.-
Updates later I suppose.
(because they're extremely hot) *Natasha melts*
So
Go fill up a glass with tonic rocks and gin
And drink yourself to happiness
It's the holidays!
Sweet.
Lol. Anyway, yesterday was the craziest day I've had in a while. Everything was just so jammed pack it was like... o.o
First had school, obviously. Myra and I spent most of the school day talking about Christian Siriano. Shit, he is so HOT. Lol. And then after that, had Interact meeting. The last meeting of 07/08. ='( I'm going to miss Atoi!!! She's the best president ever.
-.-'
I sound like such a dork but moving on.... I'm stoked about installation. This is, if I get installed. God, I'm so nervous!!
Urgh....stupid thoughts!!!
Then straight after that, I drifted around the school for a while with Trisher because I was looking for Baizura and Myra. I actually have tennis that day and thought that Interact meeting would last until 4.30pm when tennis ends. But it didn't, so I went to tennis after that. Played tennis in my school uniform. LOL.
It was hilarious. I mean, c'mon.....
Then had tuition at 7.00pm till 8.30pm. And extra Maths class from 8.30pm to 10.00pm. Yeah, he didn't come. Again. I should really quit putting my hopes up so high.
I guess I've got to think of it this way, he has exams so yeah.....study study study.
But hey! When I had exams I still went. =.=
Urgh.
I came up with my own tagline during tuition though! Okay, so technically it's not mine. It's a mixture of two people's tagline but I joined them together and created something new so, TECHNICALLY it's mine......isn't it?
I took Paris Hilton's, "That hot."
And Christian Siriano's, "Fierce."
And came up with,
"THAT'S FIERCE!!!"
LOL. I am so lame. -.-'
But I like it. (: The tagline I meant, not the fact that I'm lame. I just have to deal with that fact though. Anyway, Miss Nirmala gave me and Baizura one of those rare compliments which made us smile like idiots long after tuition. Lol. I'm not going to go into details because it's a really long explanation but the conclusion is: She gave us a compliment!
Bahahaha....
So...... I'm bored out of my mind and I'm trying to figure out what should I wear tomorrow for tuition. As per usual. It's always like this weekend.
Okay, my neck hurts. I hate this chair. -.-
Updates later I suppose.
(because they're extremely hot) *Natasha melts*
So
Go fill up a glass with tonic rocks and gin
And drink yourself to happiness
Wednesday, 21 May 2008
The Birthday Blog Post for Sash
Happy Birthday Sash!!!!
I.O.U.: A day of fun and present during the May holidays!!!
Brooke has a 'birthday cupcake' for you though. (:
Speaking of which, I still owe Mye a birthday present. Oooeerr....Mye, May hols? Lol.
Didn't go to school today. Felt sick in the stomach and puked something gross this morning. Taylor asked if I was pregnant. -.-"
You need to have sex in order to get pregnant Taylor, so unless Dougie Poynter was in my bed last night. No, I don't think I'm pregnant.
I've been listening to 'Afterlife' by Avenged Sevenfold over and over again. Don't ask why. I think it's the guitars. Hmmm.....Ah, the days when I'm able to get an electric guitar. Screw him if he doesn't like 'em. I think electric guitars are sexy and omg....I love songs with amazing solos. SO YEAH.
I'm not really doing anything at the moment. I'm thinking about watching the McFly DVD for the next couple of hours but hmmmm.....
I was actually in the middle of watching 'Knocked Up' when my Dad called and said he was coming over. And I think he'd freak if he saw me watching that since apparently it's +18PG so I switched it off. I see no point of the +18PG sign thing actually. I mean, do they thing that we're really that naive and not know anything about sex?
Or that the movie is too scary that we'll have nightmares and piss in our beds?
-.-'
Oh shit. It's going to rain. =.=
Urgh....
I'm hate feeling like this
I'm so tired of trying to fight this
I'm asleep and all I dream of is waking to you
Tell me that you will listen
Your touch is what I'm missing
And the more I hide I realize I'm slowly losing you
I.O.U.: A day of fun and present during the May holidays!!!
Brooke has a 'birthday cupcake' for you though. (:
Speaking of which, I still owe Mye a birthday present. Oooeerr....Mye, May hols? Lol.
Didn't go to school today. Felt sick in the stomach and puked something gross this morning. Taylor asked if I was pregnant. -.-"
You need to have sex in order to get pregnant Taylor, so unless Dougie Poynter was in my bed last night. No, I don't think I'm pregnant.
I've been listening to 'Afterlife' by Avenged Sevenfold over and over again. Don't ask why. I think it's the guitars. Hmmm.....Ah, the days when I'm able to get an electric guitar. Screw him if he doesn't like 'em. I think electric guitars are sexy and omg....I love songs with amazing solos. SO YEAH.
I'm not really doing anything at the moment. I'm thinking about watching the McFly DVD for the next couple of hours but hmmmm.....
I was actually in the middle of watching 'Knocked Up' when my Dad called and said he was coming over. And I think he'd freak if he saw me watching that since apparently it's +18PG so I switched it off. I see no point of the +18PG sign thing actually. I mean, do they thing that we're really that naive and not know anything about sex?
Or that the movie is too scary that we'll have nightmares and piss in our beds?
-.-'
Oh shit. It's going to rain. =.=
Urgh....
I'm hate feeling like this
I'm so tired of trying to fight this
I'm asleep and all I dream of is waking to you
Tell me that you will listen
Your touch is what I'm missing
And the more I hide I realize I'm slowly losing you
Tuesday, 20 May 2008
It's too late to even have faith
I'm sweating, my eyes are almost bleeding and I've got Sum 41 blasting out of my headphone and I swear I might go deaf just because I don't want to listen to the world around me. I'm sick of the world. I'm sick of everything in it. Why can't everything go the way I want it for once? Why can't I ever be good?
Why do I always turn out to be the fucking casualty of almost every single god damn thing?!
You know what's worst than sitting for an exam?
Getting the results.
And you know what?
I totally screwed up my exams. Thoroughly and truly screwed them up. It's so fucked up that it makes some random dog coming up and shitting on your expensieve brand new pair of Converse sneakers look like a nap on a cold rainy day.
I'm scared. I mean, I thought I'd get by at least with an 'A' for Science and if worse come to worse, a B for Maths. I never anticipated this. Never. I feel so stupid. Everyone did better than me. Of course. They always do.
I feel like I've got the word, 'DUMBASS' tattooed on my forehead. I probably already do. I mean, no one could be as stupid as me. Like, what the fuck? I never got anything less than a B for maths. MATHS. In high school. And suddenly this shitty paper came along and ruined my entire life. Ohmygod. I have never been this scared about my results. Except for the time when I was eleven and considered running away. I'm seriously tempted to do that now but it's not like I have anywhere to go. Hey Crazy Daisy, mind if I turn up on your doorstep one day?
Why do I always turn out to be the fucking casualty of almost every single god damn thing?!
You know what's worst than sitting for an exam?
Getting the results.
And you know what?
I totally screwed up my exams. Thoroughly and truly screwed them up. It's so fucked up that it makes some random dog coming up and shitting on your expensieve brand new pair of Converse sneakers look like a nap on a cold rainy day.
I'm scared. I mean, I thought I'd get by at least with an 'A' for Science and if worse come to worse, a B for Maths. I never anticipated this. Never. I feel so stupid. Everyone did better than me. Of course. They always do.
I feel like I've got the word, 'DUMBASS' tattooed on my forehead. I probably already do. I mean, no one could be as stupid as me. Like, what the fuck? I never got anything less than a B for maths. MATHS. In high school. And suddenly this shitty paper came along and ruined my entire life. Ohmygod. I have never been this scared about my results. Except for the time when I was eleven and considered running away. I'm seriously tempted to do that now but it's not like I have anywhere to go. Hey Crazy Daisy, mind if I turn up on your doorstep one day?
You're probably thinking, oh c'mon.....it's just another exam. It's not PMR yet. I don't have to go all melodramatic about it.....
Well, I'm sorry to say, I can't not freak out about it. Have you ever felt like the entire world is smarter than you and you're just this dumb freak with no talent whatsoever? You wonder if your life even means anything.....if it even makes an impact on anyone else's lives.
Oh fuck it. I can't do this anymore.
This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don't know how it got so bad
Sometimes it's so crazy
But nothing can save me
But it's the only thing I have
Sunday, 18 May 2008
Listen As My Heart Beats
Ever wondered what love was made out of? Like, if it were to take some sort of food-like form. What would it taste like?
I think for me, it'll taste like the creamiest smoothest cheesecake, with feather-light cheese that just melts on your tongue and crunchy but yummy crust.
Or maybe I'm just hungry?
Hmmm....Anyway, today was fun. I guess, I don't know how to classify as 'fun' anymore. I'm just grateful for the two days I get to see him. Sure, it doesn't seem like a lot compared to those people who happen to have their boyfriends/girlfriends in the same school as them. But hey, beggars can't be choosers. Unfortunately.....
I wonder if I have any leftover homework I'm suppose to have finished. Urgh, I can't believe tomorrow is Monday. True, there's no school tomorrow due to it being Wesak. But unnnggghhh....we have school on Tuesday.
I feel like I'm having one huge countdown from Monday to Friday. So I can see him again. And when Saturday rolls around, it's like....the hours just seem to be shorter and before I realize it, it's already 7pm and we have to go home.
Oh well....
Urgh....Photobucket is being gay. A lot of things are being gay today. Like first, my sisters couldn't stop banging on my door to wake me up. Like, wtf? It's a weekend.
And then I couldn't figure out what to wear to tuition today. It was like, this shirt? No, not this shirt. I wore this before. *throws it onto the floor* This? No, no. The sleeves are too short. *throws it onto the floor as well* Does this match with this pants? Urgh...no.
All in all, it took me about three hours to get ready today and it didn't even look that good. No kidding.
And then when I came to tuition, there was this dude sitting in my usual place. I was like.... =.='
We should really print out our names and stick it to the chairs.
Edward looked helpless today for some reason.
I think ignorance is bliss. Because Baizura doesn't know what's going on between Albert and Edward so it's fine for her to sit and not be stressed out. It's different for me somehow, true, I don't even know what the hell is going on half the time but I just know there's something and it bothers me. It bothers me even more because I don't know what it is! Yes, I have heard of the phrase, 'Curiousity killed the cat.'
But hey, satisfaction brought her back. (:
I am currently waiting for a friend to come over. She's going to sleepover! Yay! Lol. Yes, I love sleepovers. I'm such a kid. Ahahaha.....
But c'mon....I haven't seen her since like, last year. I need to stop saying the word 'like'. Sandra and I have tried it before. We tried to go five minutes without saying the word 'like' and I'm proud to say.........I failed miserably.
Ohmygod! I am so annoyed with Photobucket right now, it absaloutely refuses to upload this picture for some reason. =.="
It's times like this I wish I had photoshop. But ngeh.....I think I'll work on my writing and guitar skills at the moment.
I love the song 'Pain for Pleasure' by Sum 41. Steve doesn't sound half-bad, singing. And Deryck is good on the drums. I miss Travis Barker. Scratch that, I miss BLINK 182.
Speak of the dirty devil....
My player just changed the song to a Blink 182 song.
Okay, I think I should go and get my room ready. In other words, go and get it semi-clean for Andrea. Yeah, I wouldn't want to gross her out with my lack of cleaning skills. But Lord Honeypot is nicely sitting on my unmade bed, surveying his kingdom of rumpled duvet and soft pillows! (: He loves his new castle.
I think for me, it'll taste like the creamiest smoothest cheesecake, with feather-light cheese that just melts on your tongue and crunchy but yummy crust.
Or maybe I'm just hungry?
Hmmm....Anyway, today was fun. I guess, I don't know how to classify as 'fun' anymore. I'm just grateful for the two days I get to see him. Sure, it doesn't seem like a lot compared to those people who happen to have their boyfriends/girlfriends in the same school as them. But hey, beggars can't be choosers. Unfortunately.....
I wonder if I have any leftover homework I'm suppose to have finished. Urgh, I can't believe tomorrow is Monday. True, there's no school tomorrow due to it being Wesak. But unnnggghhh....we have school on Tuesday.
I feel like I'm having one huge countdown from Monday to Friday. So I can see him again. And when Saturday rolls around, it's like....the hours just seem to be shorter and before I realize it, it's already 7pm and we have to go home.
Oh well....
Urgh....Photobucket is being gay. A lot of things are being gay today. Like first, my sisters couldn't stop banging on my door to wake me up. Like, wtf? It's a weekend.
And then I couldn't figure out what to wear to tuition today. It was like, this shirt? No, not this shirt. I wore this before. *throws it onto the floor* This? No, no. The sleeves are too short. *throws it onto the floor as well* Does this match with this pants? Urgh...no.
All in all, it took me about three hours to get ready today and it didn't even look that good. No kidding.
And then when I came to tuition, there was this dude sitting in my usual place. I was like.... =.='
We should really print out our names and stick it to the chairs.
Edward looked helpless today for some reason.
I think ignorance is bliss. Because Baizura doesn't know what's going on between Albert and Edward so it's fine for her to sit and not be stressed out. It's different for me somehow, true, I don't even know what the hell is going on half the time but I just know there's something and it bothers me. It bothers me even more because I don't know what it is! Yes, I have heard of the phrase, 'Curiousity killed the cat.'
But hey, satisfaction brought her back. (:
I am currently waiting for a friend to come over. She's going to sleepover! Yay! Lol. Yes, I love sleepovers. I'm such a kid. Ahahaha.....
But c'mon....I haven't seen her since like, last year. I need to stop saying the word 'like'. Sandra and I have tried it before. We tried to go five minutes without saying the word 'like' and I'm proud to say.........I failed miserably.
Ohmygod! I am so annoyed with Photobucket right now, it absaloutely refuses to upload this picture for some reason. =.="
It's times like this I wish I had photoshop. But ngeh.....I think I'll work on my writing and guitar skills at the moment.
I love the song 'Pain for Pleasure' by Sum 41. Steve doesn't sound half-bad, singing. And Deryck is good on the drums. I miss Travis Barker. Scratch that, I miss BLINK 182.
Speak of the dirty devil....
My player just changed the song to a Blink 182 song.
Okay, I think I should go and get my room ready. In other words, go and get it semi-clean for Andrea. Yeah, I wouldn't want to gross her out with my lack of cleaning skills. But Lord Honeypot is nicely sitting on my unmade bed, surveying his kingdom of rumpled duvet and soft pillows! (: He loves his new castle.
Saturday, 17 May 2008
TAGGED!!!
TAGGED by Divya!!!!
Rules:
1.Put your music player on shuffle.
2.Press forward for each question.
3.Use the song title as the answer. Even though it doesn’t make sense. NO CHEATING!!!
4.Tag 3 people.
5.Bold the questions. And with the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the question.
What song will be played at your wedding?
155 by +44
Urm....that's sad. This song is kinda on the emo side.
What song will be playing during your first kiss?
Thing Called Love by McFly
Awwww.....!!! Now that's sweet. Aw, I feel like the actors in Grease.
What’s today’s soundtrack?
Walking Disaster by Sum 41
But today was good!
What will your life be like after 20?
I Knew I Love You by Savage Garden
Does this mean I'll be married by 20? o.o Or will I be in the perfect relationship by then? If it's the latter. I'm not surprised. *nudge nudge*
What does your computer feel towards you?
Kiss Me - Sixpence None The Richer
Why, of course I will!!! *kisses monitor screen*
What song should you play when you’re alone in the dark?
Star Girl by McFly
Lol. I don't mind. (:
'So wouldn't you like to come with me?
Surfing the sun as it starts to riiiiise'
Song to dance to when no one’s watching?
Asthenia by Blink 182
This song isn't really dance-able to, but...it's a pretty good song to play air guitar to!!! (:
Song playing when you brush your teeth?
Naughty Boy by Gunther
Erm.......I think I'll choke on the foam. I'll be laughing like hell. And try to imitate the guy singing.
The ultimate thing to do before you turn 50?
The Jester by Sum 41
Ah, well at least I've done that. I'm probably always the jester among the six of my best friends.
What goes on in your doctor’s head before he injects you?
When We Die by Bowling For Soup
What the fuck?!?! EH, YOU BETTER NOT KILL ME OR I WILL COME BACK AND HAUNT YOU!!!!
Scare song for siblings (just when they get too attached)?
Closer by Travis
Yes, yes. Come closer and I will bite your head off you annoying lil' midgets.
What will you say when he proposes?
What Went Wrong by Blink 182
LOL!!!!!! This will only be said when he looks at the ring with a weird face. I'll say that. And then he'll say, "I could've sworn the diamond was bigger."
AHAHAHA
Lame joke. =.='
What do you hate most about your best friend?
Sex & Love by Faber Drive
Urm. Huh? Please explain.
Bite-your-fortune-cookie-song?
What's Your Name by Jesse McCartney
Yes, the cookie will predict that I'll meet this guy.....and he wonders what my name is. Pfftt...
What will you work as when you grow up?
Home by Vanessa Carlton
This doesn't sound so good.
Biggest fear?
The Kill by 30 Seconds to Mars
Yes, I fear the bloody massacre of urm.....imagination.
Who were you in your past life?
Ultraviolet by McFly
OHMYGOD!!!! I WAS ULTRAVIOLET IN MY PAST LIFE?!?!?! Do the FBI know this?! Ohmygod....no wonder I'm so lame now. God is punishing me for being extremely awesome in my past life. I always knew there was something wrong with me....
Do you have a secret admirer?
Accidentally In Love by Counting Crows
Yeah, that dude must've had an accident. Who'd fall for me?
What are you thinking of when you look in the mirror?
I've Got You by McFly
Yes, because I always think of hot British guys when I look at myself in the mirror. -.-'
Song during your first date?
Time After Time by Elliot Minor
I don't get it.
How will you die?
There Is by Boxcar Racer
There is a way......but the hands of fate aren't telling me yet.
Your stalker’s theme song?
3AM by Busted
LOL!!! Enough said.
'I'm calling you at 3AM,
And I'm standing here right outside the door,
And I don't think that my heart could take much more'
Freeeeaky.
What message do you send to kids?
Breaking by Elliot Minor
No, I'm not a kids-person. I think you'd be able to figure this out by now.
What is the first thing your crush will say to you?
I Don't Wanna Know by New Found Glory
"I don't wanna know what my life would be like without you in it." Because that's what he's really going to say.
*sighs*
LOL.
What will you say to Johnny Depp?
Hot by Avril Lavinge
Well, this is kind of obvious ain't it?
What are you feeling? Mood-o-meter?
Collide by Howie Day
Yes, I do feel emo + romantic-ish. (: I love this song.
What do you think of the person who tagged you?
Not Alone by McFly
Well, seeing as she wasn't alone when she thought of this tag. This might just be right!!
What does your crush think about you?
Pictures of You by The Last Goodnight
This is sort of sweet as well as sort of stalkerish..... o.o
Song playing when you’re out shopping with your friends?
Dirty Pop by N*Sync
Oh, lol. Yes, yes, yes!!
What goes through your head when the plane you’re on is gonna crash?
I Wanna Hold You by McFly
Well, isn't this just appropriate? I'd hold on to anything that would save my life!!!
Last one. Press forward one last time and insert song underneath.
Go by Blink 182
That song will be stuck in your head for two weeks as a result of doing this tag.
I tag: Myra, Trisher and Crazy Daisy. (:
Rules:
1.Put your music player on shuffle.
2.Press forward for each question.
3.Use the song title as the answer. Even though it doesn’t make sense. NO CHEATING!!!
4.Tag 3 people.
5.Bold the questions. And with the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the question.
What song will be played at your wedding?
155 by +44
Urm....that's sad. This song is kinda on the emo side.
What song will be playing during your first kiss?
Thing Called Love by McFly
Awwww.....!!! Now that's sweet. Aw, I feel like the actors in Grease.
What’s today’s soundtrack?
Walking Disaster by Sum 41
But today was good!
What will your life be like after 20?
I Knew I Love You by Savage Garden
Does this mean I'll be married by 20? o.o Or will I be in the perfect relationship by then? If it's the latter. I'm not surprised. *nudge nudge*
What does your computer feel towards you?
Kiss Me - Sixpence None The Richer
Why, of course I will!!! *kisses monitor screen*
What song should you play when you’re alone in the dark?
Star Girl by McFly
Lol. I don't mind. (:
'So wouldn't you like to come with me?
Surfing the sun as it starts to riiiiise'
Song to dance to when no one’s watching?
Asthenia by Blink 182
This song isn't really dance-able to, but...it's a pretty good song to play air guitar to!!! (:
Song playing when you brush your teeth?
Naughty Boy by Gunther
Erm.......I think I'll choke on the foam. I'll be laughing like hell. And try to imitate the guy singing.
The ultimate thing to do before you turn 50?
The Jester by Sum 41
Ah, well at least I've done that. I'm probably always the jester among the six of my best friends.
What goes on in your doctor’s head before he injects you?
When We Die by Bowling For Soup
What the fuck?!?! EH, YOU BETTER NOT KILL ME OR I WILL COME BACK AND HAUNT YOU!!!!
Scare song for siblings (just when they get too attached)?
Closer by Travis
Yes, yes. Come closer and I will bite your head off you annoying lil' midgets.
What will you say when he proposes?
What Went Wrong by Blink 182
LOL!!!!!! This will only be said when he looks at the ring with a weird face. I'll say that. And then he'll say, "I could've sworn the diamond was bigger."
AHAHAHA
Lame joke. =.='
What do you hate most about your best friend?
Sex & Love by Faber Drive
Urm. Huh? Please explain.
Bite-your-fortune-cookie-song?
What's Your Name by Jesse McCartney
Yes, the cookie will predict that I'll meet this guy.....and he wonders what my name is. Pfftt...
What will you work as when you grow up?
Home by Vanessa Carlton
This doesn't sound so good.
Biggest fear?
The Kill by 30 Seconds to Mars
Yes, I fear the bloody massacre of urm.....imagination.
Who were you in your past life?
Ultraviolet by McFly
OHMYGOD!!!! I WAS ULTRAVIOLET IN MY PAST LIFE?!?!?! Do the FBI know this?! Ohmygod....no wonder I'm so lame now. God is punishing me for being extremely awesome in my past life. I always knew there was something wrong with me....
Do you have a secret admirer?
Accidentally In Love by Counting Crows
Yeah, that dude must've had an accident. Who'd fall for me?
What are you thinking of when you look in the mirror?
I've Got You by McFly
Yes, because I always think of hot British guys when I look at myself in the mirror. -.-'
Song during your first date?
Time After Time by Elliot Minor
I don't get it.
How will you die?
There Is by Boxcar Racer
There is a way......but the hands of fate aren't telling me yet.
Your stalker’s theme song?
3AM by Busted
LOL!!! Enough said.
'I'm calling you at 3AM,
And I'm standing here right outside the door,
And I don't think that my heart could take much more'
Freeeeaky.
What message do you send to kids?
Breaking by Elliot Minor
No, I'm not a kids-person. I think you'd be able to figure this out by now.
What is the first thing your crush will say to you?
I Don't Wanna Know by New Found Glory
"I don't wanna know what my life would be like without you in it." Because that's what he's really going to say.
*sighs*
LOL.
What will you say to Johnny Depp?
Hot by Avril Lavinge
Well, this is kind of obvious ain't it?
What are you feeling? Mood-o-meter?
Collide by Howie Day
Yes, I do feel emo + romantic-ish. (: I love this song.
What do you think of the person who tagged you?
Not Alone by McFly
Well, seeing as she wasn't alone when she thought of this tag. This might just be right!!
What does your crush think about you?
Pictures of You by The Last Goodnight
This is sort of sweet as well as sort of stalkerish..... o.o
Song playing when you’re out shopping with your friends?
Dirty Pop by N*Sync
Oh, lol. Yes, yes, yes!!
What goes through your head when the plane you’re on is gonna crash?
I Wanna Hold You by McFly
Well, isn't this just appropriate? I'd hold on to anything that would save my life!!!
Last one. Press forward one last time and insert song underneath.
Go by Blink 182
That song will be stuck in your head for two weeks as a result of doing this tag.
I tag: Myra, Trisher and Crazy Daisy. (:
Everything's Magic
Saya budak sakai.....
Omg....sengal giler.
La la la. Anyway, I'm back. Erm....obviously. Lol. I cam whored today. Because I was bored. I woke up at twelve something and I was like, "WTF? I've got to get to tuition in like two hours!!"
I am currently listening to Avril Lavinge who of course reminds me of Deryck Whibley. >.<
Ohmygod, he is so hot!!!! Avril is so lucky.
I think I mentioned that I cam whored? Lol. Yes, that was the result. GOD I look like a clown. Lol. Anyways, went to tuition. La di la di la.....
He gave me a present! =)
I nearly didn't make it on time to tuitiona actually. Cos I had to stop by Div's house to pass her my guitar. Which I owe her many many thanks for changing the strings. (: And then when I came I bumped into Brandon. I think I went all weird eyed like: o.O
I guess because I know something about something..... =X
It's a secret unfortunately.
I think when Albert came, my heart shot up to my throat or something. Even after two months (maybe more in my head), I'm still not used to the fact that he's so amazingly hot. =D
I am such a pathetic loser.
Moving on from my loserish confession.....He gave me a mysterious bag *dun dun dun* and when I got home and looked.
AWWWW
It was a teddy bear. (:
I love you Albert but you spoil me. >.<
I have named him: Lord Honeypot. (: It's a cute name okay? Stop looking at me like that. -.-'
Tomorrow is Sunday.......I don't know what to wear to tuition. *sighs* And hopefully, a friend of mine can sleepover tomorrow night because we don't have school this Monday! YAY. I know, I'm so lame. I really want to read some new book or other. Yes, Lat, I've read through King Dork and Beserk. I don't think I'll ever finish reading the other two though. I seem to have lost interest. I'm sorry. =(
I hate the way I pout. But I love it at the same time. It's become a signature of mine now. =.='
Greeeat....
Lol.
I wanna get a webcam! Ohmygod....but I only have like.....twenty something ringgit. And a webcam costs up to eighty something. Ngeeehhh.....Looks like I won't be eating for some time. I swear, I think I can connect my video camera to the computer and turn it into a webcam but I need to be an administrator to do that. It's so stupid, why does my Dad have to be the administrator? He's hardly at home anyway. And when he is, he's watching TV. Why does he dominate the computer?
The computer is MY life support machine. Not his.
Mel is such a sakai head. She won't let me see her braces. >.<
Be my bad boy
Be my man
Omg....sengal giler.
La la la. Anyway, I'm back. Erm....obviously. Lol. I cam whored today. Because I was bored. I woke up at twelve something and I was like, "WTF? I've got to get to tuition in like two hours!!"
I am currently listening to Avril Lavinge who of course reminds me of Deryck Whibley. >.<
Ohmygod, he is so hot!!!! Avril is so lucky.
I think I mentioned that I cam whored? Lol. Yes, that was the result. GOD I look like a clown. Lol. Anyways, went to tuition. La di la di la.....
He gave me a present! =)
I nearly didn't make it on time to tuitiona actually. Cos I had to stop by Div's house to pass her my guitar. Which I owe her many many thanks for changing the strings. (: And then when I came I bumped into Brandon. I think I went all weird eyed like: o.O
I guess because I know something about something..... =X
It's a secret unfortunately.
I think when Albert came, my heart shot up to my throat or something. Even after two months (maybe more in my head), I'm still not used to the fact that he's so amazingly hot. =D
I am such a pathetic loser.
Moving on from my loserish confession.....He gave me a mysterious bag *dun dun dun* and when I got home and looked.
AWWWW
It was a teddy bear. (:
I love you Albert but you spoil me. >.<
I have named him: Lord Honeypot. (: It's a cute name okay? Stop looking at me like that. -.-'
Tomorrow is Sunday.......I don't know what to wear to tuition. *sighs* And hopefully, a friend of mine can sleepover tomorrow night because we don't have school this Monday! YAY. I know, I'm so lame. I really want to read some new book or other. Yes, Lat, I've read through King Dork and Beserk. I don't think I'll ever finish reading the other two though. I seem to have lost interest. I'm sorry. =(
I hate the way I pout. But I love it at the same time. It's become a signature of mine now. =.='
Greeeat....
Lol.
I wanna get a webcam! Ohmygod....but I only have like.....twenty something ringgit. And a webcam costs up to eighty something. Ngeeehhh.....Looks like I won't be eating for some time. I swear, I think I can connect my video camera to the computer and turn it into a webcam but I need to be an administrator to do that. It's so stupid, why does my Dad have to be the administrator? He's hardly at home anyway. And when he is, he's watching TV. Why does he dominate the computer?
The computer is MY life support machine. Not his.
Mel is such a sakai head. She won't let me see her braces. >.<
Be my bad boy
Be my man
Friday, 16 May 2008
No Boundaries
*insert posh English accent*
Oh why hello....It's been quite a while since I've last seen you.
BAHAHA. Whooooooooo......right! I've finished my exams!!! *insert some random happy music* La di la di la di daaa.....
Today is also a special day because.....*dun dun dun* It's the 16th. *nudge nudge* And you know what that means right?
Yes, it's been two months. (:
*happy sigh*
Moving on.....
I just realize how I seem to be more in love with the bass players of the band than I am with the guitarists. Which is kind of weird since usually, I'm always the one for the frontman kind of guy. But lately, it's just been....I don't know. A bassist parade?
Bahaha....okay that was lame. I swear, half of my brain is fried from all the studying that I've been doing. God, hope I did okay for Geography and History. I remember banging alot. Lol. Trisher, I'm addicted to your word. Bang, bang.....BANG.
This is a totally random post with everything just mashed up together, no thinking required. Lol. Hmmm...Ohmygod....the last thing I ate was this flimsy (yes, flimsy) piece of bread with bananas and now....I'm hungry. -.-
Ahahaha....the first thing I do when I get home is get on the computer just so I can see Cone. Seriously, it's funny how I'm so hooked on him.
I mean, I was just perfectly fine with Dougie and then it was like a head on train collusion or something and then BAM.
Hi, I am now a Cone McCaslin addict. How may I help you?
OMG. I love dancing. Dancing makes the world goes round and round and round on it's sort of retarded side. =D I miss dancing. -.- It's been a while since I last danced (not including random air guitar things that I've been doing in my room when no one is watching). La la la....Sum 41 has dominated my phone play list. I think out of 60 something songs, 30 of them are Sum 41 songs. Seriously. Oh, McFly's new song just leaked out onto YouTube. Yeah, okay fine....it's just the demo but still.....
It was kind of..... o.O
I don't know. It was sooo....happy and summery. C'mon, I've been listening to Sum 41, Skillet and Emery for the past month, I can't exactly just change into a happy happy summery mood in a snap. Urgh.....I feel like I need to take an intensive lesson just to appreciate McFly again.
Okay, my stomach is very angry with me right now. It absolutely demands to be fed, right now so I shall blog....urm....who knows? (:
Turn our music down
And we whisper
"Say what you're thinking right now"
Oh why hello....It's been quite a while since I've last seen you.
BAHAHA. Whooooooooo......right! I've finished my exams!!! *insert some random happy music* La di la di la di daaa.....
Today is also a special day because.....*dun dun dun* It's the 16th. *nudge nudge* And you know what that means right?
Yes, it's been two months. (:
*happy sigh*
Moving on.....
I just realize how I seem to be more in love with the bass players of the band than I am with the guitarists. Which is kind of weird since usually, I'm always the one for the frontman kind of guy. But lately, it's just been....I don't know. A bassist parade?
Bahaha....okay that was lame. I swear, half of my brain is fried from all the studying that I've been doing. God, hope I did okay for Geography and History. I remember banging alot. Lol. Trisher, I'm addicted to your word. Bang, bang.....BANG.
This is a totally random post with everything just mashed up together, no thinking required. Lol. Hmmm...Ohmygod....the last thing I ate was this flimsy (yes, flimsy) piece of bread with bananas and now....I'm hungry. -.-
Ahahaha....the first thing I do when I get home is get on the computer just so I can see Cone. Seriously, it's funny how I'm so hooked on him.
I mean, I was just perfectly fine with Dougie and then it was like a head on train collusion or something and then BAM.
Hi, I am now a Cone McCaslin addict. How may I help you?
OMG. I love dancing. Dancing makes the world goes round and round and round on it's sort of retarded side. =D I miss dancing. -.- It's been a while since I last danced (not including random air guitar things that I've been doing in my room when no one is watching). La la la....Sum 41 has dominated my phone play list. I think out of 60 something songs, 30 of them are Sum 41 songs. Seriously. Oh, McFly's new song just leaked out onto YouTube. Yeah, okay fine....it's just the demo but still.....
It was kind of..... o.O
I don't know. It was sooo....happy and summery. C'mon, I've been listening to Sum 41, Skillet and Emery for the past month, I can't exactly just change into a happy happy summery mood in a snap. Urgh.....I feel like I need to take an intensive lesson just to appreciate McFly again.
Okay, my stomach is very angry with me right now. It absolutely demands to be fed, right now so I shall blog....urm....who knows? (:
Turn our music down
And we whisper
"Say what you're thinking right now"
Sunday, 11 May 2008
Your Smile
Hiiii!!!
Alright, I admit it. I'm addicted to my Internet. My Mum wanted me to write her a letter for some banking thing so I asked if I could blog. *dun dun dun* Here I am. Yes, she reads my blog. Yes, she supports me writing my blog.
Agagaga....
Okay, okay, okay...
RECAP!!!
Saturday.
My plan to ignore him? Didn't work. He asked Baizura if he could switch places with her and sat next to me. And urm....he looked so hot that day. *sighs* I don't think he has any idea how much he really affects me. It's like.....every little gesture, resting his head on my shoulder, gently brushing his arm against mine...... makes my heart beat faster and faster and faster. I'm amazed I haven't gotten sent to the ER yet.
I pity Prime though. It's not his fault that some times he can be a bit of a wild child. He looked so lonely sitting at the side of the class by himself.
By the way, I would like to apologise if my post doesn't make any sense. Cos I have a time limit right now and I'm just mashing everything up together.
Sunday.
Happy Mother's Day! I spent three hours making a card for my Mum. I think she thinks I'm a sadistic person. Or morbid. Either way, I'm not normal. I drew a picture of a girl, holding her heart out. An actual heart. Complete with blood dripping, vena cava, aorta and veins. 'Happy Mummy's Day. I give you my heart Mum.'
Yes, I'm weird like that. Let's just leave it.
I woke up. Ate dim sum with my grandmama, grandpa, Aunty, Uncle, Mum and sisters. My dad stayed at home. Reasons, I'm lazy to go into. I got Cone's watch! Well something like his watch. It's well.....I'll take a picture of it one day and post it. Lol. It's from Fossil. Urm....okay....god. I'm trying to summarize everything up at top speed while listening to 'Comatose' by Skillet and texting with Baizura and Melissa. It's getting kind of hard to handle.
I joined BM tuition today. I like Cikgu Roslan, he's one of the best BM teachers I've ever had. Scratch that, one of the best teachers I've ever had. Which is quite a short list. I think. Anyway, he was surprised to see me in BM. But nyeh.....Albert seemed distracted during the first hour of BM. But he was okay after that. I think. He could've just learnt to hide it from me. He keeps saying his transparent because everytime when I ask him, "What's wrong?"
There's usually something wrong.
I told him, he's not transparent. But I guess, it's just because.......when you care about someone that much. You can just see when there's something wrong or something bothering them. Am I right? I'm not sure. But Mel, I think I'm right. How else would that explain you? =P
You wanna know something stupid? I've tried to study. I swear. But everytime I try...... shit happens and I'll just stare out my window and think of him. >.< I'm tired of this game. It's like one moment I feel unloved, unwanted and useless. The next I'm happy and bla bla bla. Part of me wants to scream: STOP PLAYING AROUND WITH ME YOU FOOL.
Ngeh. I'd like to apologise to all those people who have been worried about me by the way. I didn't mean to make you cry and etc due to my unbelievably emo posts. I guess things aren't really steady right now. Which is funny considering the fact that this Friday is our two month anniversary.
P/s: Sandra, Melissa, Crazy Daisy, Divya, Baizura, Myra and Sash. Thanks for keeping me alive for the last three or so weeks. Thanks for letting me know I'm not the only one handling the pain. Thanks for just being there for me. I love you guys.
I've been waiting for the chance to reunite this sick romance
Poison never hurt so good
So nice of you to speak of me
Alright, I admit it. I'm addicted to my Internet. My Mum wanted me to write her a letter for some banking thing so I asked if I could blog. *dun dun dun* Here I am. Yes, she reads my blog. Yes, she supports me writing my blog.
Agagaga....
Okay, okay, okay...
RECAP!!!
Saturday.
My plan to ignore him? Didn't work. He asked Baizura if he could switch places with her and sat next to me. And urm....he looked so hot that day. *sighs* I don't think he has any idea how much he really affects me. It's like.....every little gesture, resting his head on my shoulder, gently brushing his arm against mine...... makes my heart beat faster and faster and faster. I'm amazed I haven't gotten sent to the ER yet.
I pity Prime though. It's not his fault that some times he can be a bit of a wild child. He looked so lonely sitting at the side of the class by himself.
By the way, I would like to apologise if my post doesn't make any sense. Cos I have a time limit right now and I'm just mashing everything up together.
Sunday.
Happy Mother's Day! I spent three hours making a card for my Mum. I think she thinks I'm a sadistic person. Or morbid. Either way, I'm not normal. I drew a picture of a girl, holding her heart out. An actual heart. Complete with blood dripping, vena cava, aorta and veins. 'Happy Mummy's Day. I give you my heart Mum.'
Yes, I'm weird like that. Let's just leave it.
I woke up. Ate dim sum with my grandmama, grandpa, Aunty, Uncle, Mum and sisters. My dad stayed at home. Reasons, I'm lazy to go into. I got Cone's watch! Well something like his watch. It's well.....I'll take a picture of it one day and post it. Lol. It's from Fossil. Urm....okay....god. I'm trying to summarize everything up at top speed while listening to 'Comatose' by Skillet and texting with Baizura and Melissa. It's getting kind of hard to handle.
I joined BM tuition today. I like Cikgu Roslan, he's one of the best BM teachers I've ever had. Scratch that, one of the best teachers I've ever had. Which is quite a short list. I think. Anyway, he was surprised to see me in BM. But nyeh.....Albert seemed distracted during the first hour of BM. But he was okay after that. I think. He could've just learnt to hide it from me. He keeps saying his transparent because everytime when I ask him, "What's wrong?"
There's usually something wrong.
I told him, he's not transparent. But I guess, it's just because.......when you care about someone that much. You can just see when there's something wrong or something bothering them. Am I right? I'm not sure. But Mel, I think I'm right. How else would that explain you? =P
You wanna know something stupid? I've tried to study. I swear. But everytime I try...... shit happens and I'll just stare out my window and think of him. >.< I'm tired of this game. It's like one moment I feel unloved, unwanted and useless. The next I'm happy and bla bla bla. Part of me wants to scream: STOP PLAYING AROUND WITH ME YOU FOOL.
Ngeh. I'd like to apologise to all those people who have been worried about me by the way. I didn't mean to make you cry and etc due to my unbelievably emo posts. I guess things aren't really steady right now. Which is funny considering the fact that this Friday is our two month anniversary.
P/s: Sandra, Melissa, Crazy Daisy, Divya, Baizura, Myra and Sash. Thanks for keeping me alive for the last three or so weeks. Thanks for letting me know I'm not the only one handling the pain. Thanks for just being there for me. I love you guys.
I've been waiting for the chance to reunite this sick romance
Poison never hurt so good
So nice of you to speak of me
Friday, 9 May 2008
And so....
Tuning in to: 'Pull The Curtain' by Sum 41
BM and Science 2 exam today. By 2, I mean, it was the subjective papers today. -.-'
I think I crapped in my BM paper. I don't know what I wrote. I swear. I was just writing, and writing, and writing......
Next thing I knew, time was up. o.o
Science was easier than expected. Everything I studied for didn't come out. *flops onto the bed disgruntled*
Anyway, as you might have noticed, I've changed my blog skin again. I don't think I'm going to change this for a while. So just get used to it. Crazy Daisy, I send you a virtual hug. *sighs* It's exams weekend fortunately so I can't really spend a lot of time online as I would prefer.
Hell, my mum is already giving me an earful for using it tonight. But I begged and pleaded and I've got ten minutes left. -.-"
Does anyone have Prozac for tomorrow? I haven't finished Miss Nirmala's homework. I completely forgot about them until Baizura mentioned them about an hour ago when I was text messaging with her. Oh well, at least I'll die standing. I think. I'm not sure. Maybe she'll forget about them. *hopeful look*
Whatever it is, I'm still not looking forward to tomorrow.
I'm not sure what I'm going to do when I face him. I sent him a text message just now at 6pm. He still hasn't replied. I know, I should just feel good cos I sent him a nice warm text message. And everyone likes getting those right?
Hmmmm......
Well, exams are ending like, this coming Friday. Yes, seven days from now. >.<>.<
All innocence has long gone,
I pledge allegiance to the world of disbelief where I belong.
BM and Science 2 exam today. By 2, I mean, it was the subjective papers today. -.-'
I think I crapped in my BM paper. I don't know what I wrote. I swear. I was just writing, and writing, and writing......
Next thing I knew, time was up. o.o
Science was easier than expected. Everything I studied for didn't come out. *flops onto the bed disgruntled*
Anyway, as you might have noticed, I've changed my blog skin again. I don't think I'm going to change this for a while. So just get used to it. Crazy Daisy, I send you a virtual hug. *sighs* It's exams weekend fortunately so I can't really spend a lot of time online as I would prefer.
Hell, my mum is already giving me an earful for using it tonight. But I begged and pleaded and I've got ten minutes left. -.-"
Does anyone have Prozac for tomorrow? I haven't finished Miss Nirmala's homework. I completely forgot about them until Baizura mentioned them about an hour ago when I was text messaging with her. Oh well, at least I'll die standing. I think. I'm not sure. Maybe she'll forget about them. *hopeful look*
Whatever it is, I'm still not looking forward to tomorrow.
I'm not sure what I'm going to do when I face him. I sent him a text message just now at 6pm. He still hasn't replied. I know, I should just feel good cos I sent him a nice warm text message. And everyone likes getting those right?
Hmmmm......
Well, exams are ending like, this coming Friday. Yes, seven days from now. >.<>.<
All innocence has long gone,
I pledge allegiance to the world of disbelief where I belong.
Thursday, 8 May 2008
A Resistant
Hi hoooo....
(Okay, so it's not a front view picture but admit it. It's still HOTHOTHOTHOT!)
Again, skipping school. Bahaha.....Seriously, at this rate I'm never going to pass my exams. T.T I did try to study this morning, ask me anything about the human ear, eye, lungs, kidney....go on, ask me!
Lol.Lol.Lol.
I think I'm high. Which is kind of weird considering the fact that I haven't eaten yet. Hmmm...Mel, don't worry, I'm going to make myself some pasta later. Once I manage to get myself off my lazy arse and cook. I was thinking of trying to conduct a revision period with 'Friends' in the background. Whaddya think?
Anyways, my original reason to come online was just to edit some songs so that I can put it on my phone but as per usual.....I got distracted.
Still looking for the perfect blogskin so this might not last long....in the mean time....ENJOY IT.
Anyways, my original reason to come online was just to edit some songs so that I can put it on my phone but as per usual.....I got distracted.
Still looking for the perfect blogskin so this might not last long....in the mean time....ENJOY IT.
I like the smell of my new shampoo. It reminds me of Albert for some reason. And you know what? I simultaneously wanna sigh and rip something's heart out. Which is a kind of weird feeling, I think you'd agree. *sighs*
I miss 'them' for some reason. It's like I haven't seen them in a long time.
I miss 'them' for some reason. It's like I haven't seen them in a long time.
I am actually starving right now but then again, I really need to find for that 'perfect' skin. I know it's out there. Somewhere..... -.-
It's times like these I wish I was a professional graphic designer. I had this mad random moment when I typed 'Sum 41' under blogskins. Nothing came up. >.<>
It's times like these I wish I was a professional graphic designer. I had this mad random moment when I typed 'Sum 41' under blogskins. Nothing came up. >.<>
Unnnggghhh.....People on WLM right now are so boring. I don't know why but I the song 'Pain for Pleasure' reminds me of Ozzy Osbourne. Sorry Stevo. Love the guitar and bass parts though. (: Deryck, don't hurt your back playing this song. Bahaha....I make him sound old.
Hmmm...Good luck for your piano exam this Saturday Myra. But first, let's get through Science 2 and BM 2 first. Gah.....do you know how much I hate writing essays in Malay? I'm not any good plus, I don't make any sense. How I survived this far in life, I have noooo idea.
Sooo.....Dipple just posted another video on YouTube. Urm....Deryck? I'll vote for 'With Me' on TRL but I still want to hunt down your wardrobe manager and shoot him/her in the ass. Hello? Cone + fedora + suspenders? Who the Hell do you think he is? Charlie Choplin? And if he was the one that chose that outfit. All I have to say is this, "Were you drunk?"
I just got a text message from Trisher, she's asked if I'll be going for tuition tonight. Yes, Trish. I'll be going for tonight, like I went last night and you never showed up. T.T
Sobana was acting like a right arse in History last night. Enough said on that matter.
Sobana was acting like a right arse in History last night. Enough said on that matter.
Okay, that's it. My stomach thinks my throat has been chopped off. >.<
P/s: Latifah, THIS is Cone.
(Okay, so it's not a front view picture but admit it. It's still HOTHOTHOTHOT!)
Tuesday, 6 May 2008
Fire At Will
Starbucks is not gay, Stevo!
So, back to my usual incoherent rants. Didn't go to school today. I just didn't feel like I could face everyone for some reason. I mean, I don't know. It's like, I'm not in my world anymore. I feel like I floated out of my body and the floating Natasha is looking at this.....this whole new Natasha. A shadow of her.
Okay, look. I'm not making sense. The bottom line is: I'm not feeling myself.
I'm semi-worried because mid-year exams are like.....this Friday. And I have not touched a book. AT ALL. I mean it. I'm not like SOME people out there who say, no, they haven't touched a book, and yet wow.....look at the great big shiny 'A' on your paper. Stupid fag.
Anyways, I fell asleep on my bed last night, still in my school uniform. I got home at like seven something (as per usual) despite being in morning session. You would think I'd be able to reach home before seven but nooo....
So yeah, I got home and just passed out on my bed. Next thing I knew it was 1am in the morning. I changed and switched off the lights and fell back onto my bed and then after a semi-weird dream, my Dad was pounding on my door like Armageddon was about to begin and we had to evacuate or something and hey.....it was 6.30am. I haven't showered since yesterday morning. My bag was unpacked. Homework undone. There's no way in Hell I could get to school while feeling and looking like how I did this morning. So automatic day off.
I felt weirdly good in the morning which is something that doesn't happen often. Now I'm home alone. I found out that watching Friends and Sum 41 (no, not together although it'll be highly amusing if Sum 41 could ever make an appearance on Friends fortunately, they've ended the series. -.-) is a good way to make me forget all about....well.....him.
I think it's mostly because of Chandler's sarcasm, Joey's dumb antics and Cone's hotness that makes it all better. (:
Well, the only thing I'm planning to do is urm.....to study for Science because that's coming up this Friday. And study a lil' BM. I'm not sure if I can come online this weekend since it's the weekend of the exams *dun dun dun*. I'm trying to calm myself down by saying, "it's just mid year. Nothing big."
But it IS big. It's like.....equivalent to trials. Argh, god dammit. As if I needed another thing to worry about.
Mel, I read your blog. I cried. I love you. (:
Honestly, I don't know what to do right now. Nor do I know what to say to him. I'm just thinking of putting everything on 'pause' and ignoring him this weekend. Yes, not exactly the most mature thing to do but I don't know what else to do. I can't talk to him because there's always no time. He'll be too busy sitting with Prime and Edward anyway. You know what annoys me? Is that he never asks me whats wrong, he goes and ask Sandra or Baizura instead and he'll be like, "Is Natasha okay?"
Of course I'm not okay you faggot, do you think it's normal for me to ignore you?
Gaaaaaaaawwwwwddd.....
So, back to my usual incoherent rants. Didn't go to school today. I just didn't feel like I could face everyone for some reason. I mean, I don't know. It's like, I'm not in my world anymore. I feel like I floated out of my body and the floating Natasha is looking at this.....this whole new Natasha. A shadow of her.
Okay, look. I'm not making sense. The bottom line is: I'm not feeling myself.
I'm semi-worried because mid-year exams are like.....this Friday. And I have not touched a book. AT ALL. I mean it. I'm not like SOME people out there who say, no, they haven't touched a book, and yet wow.....look at the great big shiny 'A' on your paper. Stupid fag.
Anyways, I fell asleep on my bed last night, still in my school uniform. I got home at like seven something (as per usual) despite being in morning session. You would think I'd be able to reach home before seven but nooo....
So yeah, I got home and just passed out on my bed. Next thing I knew it was 1am in the morning. I changed and switched off the lights and fell back onto my bed and then after a semi-weird dream, my Dad was pounding on my door like Armageddon was about to begin and we had to evacuate or something and hey.....it was 6.30am. I haven't showered since yesterday morning. My bag was unpacked. Homework undone. There's no way in Hell I could get to school while feeling and looking like how I did this morning. So automatic day off.
I felt weirdly good in the morning which is something that doesn't happen often. Now I'm home alone. I found out that watching Friends and Sum 41 (no, not together although it'll be highly amusing if Sum 41 could ever make an appearance on Friends fortunately, they've ended the series. -.-) is a good way to make me forget all about....well.....him.
I think it's mostly because of Chandler's sarcasm, Joey's dumb antics and Cone's hotness that makes it all better. (:
Well, the only thing I'm planning to do is urm.....to study for Science because that's coming up this Friday. And study a lil' BM. I'm not sure if I can come online this weekend since it's the weekend of the exams *dun dun dun*. I'm trying to calm myself down by saying, "it's just mid year. Nothing big."
But it IS big. It's like.....equivalent to trials. Argh, god dammit. As if I needed another thing to worry about.
Mel, I read your blog. I cried. I love you. (:
Honestly, I don't know what to do right now. Nor do I know what to say to him. I'm just thinking of putting everything on 'pause' and ignoring him this weekend. Yes, not exactly the most mature thing to do but I don't know what else to do. I can't talk to him because there's always no time. He'll be too busy sitting with Prime and Edward anyway. You know what annoys me? Is that he never asks me whats wrong, he goes and ask Sandra or Baizura instead and he'll be like, "Is Natasha okay?"
Of course I'm not okay you faggot, do you think it's normal for me to ignore you?
Gaaaaaaaawwwwwddd.....
Okay, that's it. I need Cone.
Confusions all I see.
Frustration surrounds me.
Solution? Bid farewell.
Sedation? What the hell.
25
I've been tagged by Latifah. So here goes...
rules :
1. Write out 25 things most people don't know about yourself.
2. Tag 3 others to do the same.
1. When I'm about to go on stage or something and I say 'I'm not scared'. Don't believe a single thing I say because I'm usually scared shitless.
2. The second last thing I think about before I fall asleep is probably sex with whoever random person I'm obsessing about at the moment (currently it's Cone McCaslin).
3. My biggest fear is public humiliation.
4. I have an obsession with drinking plain water because I'm afraid I'll get diabetes by the age of 17.
5. Samara from the Ring is probably the worst nightmare I can ever have.
6. I'm slowly letting go of Dougie Poynter even though I keep telling myself (and everyone around me) that I'm not.
7. I'm probably the biggest Drama Queen ever.
8. Even though I hate Malaysia for the fact that they're kinda slow to catch up with some things (i.e. music) I secretly do enjoy living here.
9. When I'm in a mood, I hate being left alone. But people like to do the exact opposite which gets me even more depressed than the situation requires.
10. I think saying 'goodbye' in a conversation over WLM is very, VERY important.
11. I hate ants. -.-
12. I'm quite a sadistic person.
13. I like books with detailed sex written in them *ahem ahem* Jackie Collins anyone?
14. I'm apathetic about my Dad.
15. I sometimes wish that dinosaurs still roamed the Earth.
16. Sum 41 is pretty much the only thing I care about right now despite having exams and such.
17. I have pretty damn big ambitions but I'm not doing anything to get there.
18. Recently I've been having a lot of dirty thoughts about Jason 'Cone' McCaslin. He is just so yummy.
19. I wish I was chosen to be a prefect in SA.
20. I actually like The Jonas Brothers.
21. When I was younger I wanted to be a paleontologist just because Ross Geller from Friends was one.
22. I used to be obsessed with witchcraft and had tried out a couple of 'spells' that I had photocopied from a book that my friend had which was all about black magic and stuff.
23. I secretly think that vampires do exist.
24. I have tried smoking a cigarette before. Once. I was eleven.
25. There's not a day that goes by without me crying at least once.
I tag....
rules :
1. Write out 25 things most people don't know about yourself.
2. Tag 3 others to do the same.
1. When I'm about to go on stage or something and I say 'I'm not scared'. Don't believe a single thing I say because I'm usually scared shitless.
2. The second last thing I think about before I fall asleep is probably sex with whoever random person I'm obsessing about at the moment (currently it's Cone McCaslin).
3. My biggest fear is public humiliation.
4. I have an obsession with drinking plain water because I'm afraid I'll get diabetes by the age of 17.
5. Samara from the Ring is probably the worst nightmare I can ever have.
6. I'm slowly letting go of Dougie Poynter even though I keep telling myself (and everyone around me) that I'm not.
7. I'm probably the biggest Drama Queen ever.
8. Even though I hate Malaysia for the fact that they're kinda slow to catch up with some things (i.e. music) I secretly do enjoy living here.
9. When I'm in a mood, I hate being left alone. But people like to do the exact opposite which gets me even more depressed than the situation requires.
10. I think saying 'goodbye' in a conversation over WLM is very, VERY important.
11. I hate ants. -.-
12. I'm quite a sadistic person.
13. I like books with detailed sex written in them *ahem ahem* Jackie Collins anyone?
14. I'm apathetic about my Dad.
15. I sometimes wish that dinosaurs still roamed the Earth.
16. Sum 41 is pretty much the only thing I care about right now despite having exams and such.
17. I have pretty damn big ambitions but I'm not doing anything to get there.
18. Recently I've been having a lot of dirty thoughts about Jason 'Cone' McCaslin. He is just so yummy.
19. I wish I was chosen to be a prefect in SA.
20. I actually like The Jonas Brothers.
21. When I was younger I wanted to be a paleontologist just because Ross Geller from Friends was one.
22. I used to be obsessed with witchcraft and had tried out a couple of 'spells' that I had photocopied from a book that my friend had which was all about black magic and stuff.
23. I secretly think that vampires do exist.
24. I have tried smoking a cigarette before. Once. I was eleven.
25. There's not a day that goes by without me crying at least once.
I tag....
Crazy Daisy.
Sandra.
Mel.
Sandra.
Mel.
Sunday, 4 May 2008
For Him
Warning: This post is specifically made for one person. Or rather two. Lots of coarse language. Comment if you like, but I'm sorry if you don't understand what the fuck am I talking about.
You know how I feel right now? I feel like effing Natasha the fucking Messenger Boy or something. I'm sick of how you are using me as your connection to him. I get it, you're hurt. I get it, you're angry, lost, confused and a lot of other things too. But don't you think I feel the same way? Don't you think that for some weird reason, God has given me this connection to you? Why do you think I'm so stupid?
Why?
Why?
Why?
Do you know how much this is killing me inside? Do you know that every night I stare up at my ceiling trying my best to not touch that little box in my mind that would unleash all sorts of questions? It's like my own personal Pandora's box. Fuck that. It seems to me, that you only have eyes for him. It seems like.....you're gay. But I know you're not. I don't know what I know or don't know anymore to be honest. It's like everything has been jumbled up in one big mess and I'm left here trying to figure out which part goes where. I try and try to solve your problems but it just seems to go around in one big fucking passive circle and then hit me on the head on it's way back.
The sole reason I come to tuition these days are to make sure you're okay. But you wanna know what fucking hurts?! I go through all sorts of shit to come, to see you, to make sure you know I'm there but it's like you can't see me. You walk past me and sit next to him when you practically see him every week of every fucking day. Why can't you see that I need your attention too? That I need your care and love too? Yes, I know. He's special. He's your best friend.
So what am I in your eyes?
I thought we're in a relationship?
It doesn't seem that way. It seems like you only care about your friendship with him you don't realize the relationship that you're wrecking. I won't let you wreck it. I love you, and if you're too blinded to see that then that's not my fault.
I'm tired of being the person who thinks logically. Who doesn't want to judge people. Who wants to look at things from both point of views. But have you ever stopped to realize that, I don't even know the whole story? Did you ever realize that you threw me into this fucking sea of confusion and utter frustration without teaching me how to swim? Without even handing me a float, you just threw me and expect me to come up with a solution to get to the fucking shore.
You act like I'm nothing more than a friend to you when I'm suppose to be more than that. Yes, I'll always be here for you. Yes, I'll go through thick or thin with you but this is something that has been breathing down my neck for the last month. It's choking me in my sleep, it's haunting my days. It's everywhere I go and it's in every thing I see. It's like a stupid shadow that follows me around all day. A constant nagging worry at the back of my mind which grows and grows and grows until it causes an avalanche of thoughts in my mind.
Ask Sandra.
Ask Melissa.
Ask Divya.
You're the only one I think about. The only one I worry about. I've lost the desire to do anything that I love anymore. I can't seem to think straight anymore. Do you know how you made me feel in tuition today? Of all people, I had to sit next to him. When I longed to sit with you, to talk to you. To try and solve this. But no.
Do you know how much I wanted to get up and just leave class at that moment?
When you could sit there, laugh and talk with your other friends. You left me on my own. Do you know how much I cherish our times together? I know you don't. Hell, I don't think you even care.
Do you know that I'm going to have to go through these next seven days with an image of you and your friends in my head? Seven days. Replaying the same bitter memory over and over again.
Do you know how much it hurt me to read your letter to him? It was like.....I don't exist in your life. Like all the things I've done were just meaningless little nothings to you. All the times I spent trying to talk to you, cheer you up, make you laugh. All amount to nothing in your life sequence. Why is it, you remember all the little things that HE'S done to make you smile. And me.....nothing?
You wanna know how I feel? I feel like I'm punching a wall. Why? Because no matter how many times I punch the wall, no matter how much pain I have to endure, now matter how much I bleed, there's isn't even a dent on the wall. Yet I'm left with bleeding and sore knuckles.
You're that wall.
I'm bleeding and you don't even flinch.
Screw you. I love you but you don't give a flying FUCK.
You know how I feel right now? I feel like effing Natasha the fucking Messenger Boy or something. I'm sick of how you are using me as your connection to him. I get it, you're hurt. I get it, you're angry, lost, confused and a lot of other things too. But don't you think I feel the same way? Don't you think that for some weird reason, God has given me this connection to you? Why do you think I'm so stupid?
Why?
Why?
Why?
Do you know how much this is killing me inside? Do you know that every night I stare up at my ceiling trying my best to not touch that little box in my mind that would unleash all sorts of questions? It's like my own personal Pandora's box. Fuck that. It seems to me, that you only have eyes for him. It seems like.....you're gay. But I know you're not. I don't know what I know or don't know anymore to be honest. It's like everything has been jumbled up in one big mess and I'm left here trying to figure out which part goes where. I try and try to solve your problems but it just seems to go around in one big fucking passive circle and then hit me on the head on it's way back.
The sole reason I come to tuition these days are to make sure you're okay. But you wanna know what fucking hurts?! I go through all sorts of shit to come, to see you, to make sure you know I'm there but it's like you can't see me. You walk past me and sit next to him when you practically see him every week of every fucking day. Why can't you see that I need your attention too? That I need your care and love too? Yes, I know. He's special. He's your best friend.
So what am I in your eyes?
I thought we're in a relationship?
It doesn't seem that way. It seems like you only care about your friendship with him you don't realize the relationship that you're wrecking. I won't let you wreck it. I love you, and if you're too blinded to see that then that's not my fault.
I'm tired of being the person who thinks logically. Who doesn't want to judge people. Who wants to look at things from both point of views. But have you ever stopped to realize that, I don't even know the whole story? Did you ever realize that you threw me into this fucking sea of confusion and utter frustration without teaching me how to swim? Without even handing me a float, you just threw me and expect me to come up with a solution to get to the fucking shore.
You act like I'm nothing more than a friend to you when I'm suppose to be more than that. Yes, I'll always be here for you. Yes, I'll go through thick or thin with you but this is something that has been breathing down my neck for the last month. It's choking me in my sleep, it's haunting my days. It's everywhere I go and it's in every thing I see. It's like a stupid shadow that follows me around all day. A constant nagging worry at the back of my mind which grows and grows and grows until it causes an avalanche of thoughts in my mind.
Ask Sandra.
Ask Melissa.
Ask Divya.
You're the only one I think about. The only one I worry about. I've lost the desire to do anything that I love anymore. I can't seem to think straight anymore. Do you know how you made me feel in tuition today? Of all people, I had to sit next to him. When I longed to sit with you, to talk to you. To try and solve this. But no.
Do you know how much I wanted to get up and just leave class at that moment?
When you could sit there, laugh and talk with your other friends. You left me on my own. Do you know how much I cherish our times together? I know you don't. Hell, I don't think you even care.
Do you know that I'm going to have to go through these next seven days with an image of you and your friends in my head? Seven days. Replaying the same bitter memory over and over again.
Do you know how much it hurt me to read your letter to him? It was like.....I don't exist in your life. Like all the things I've done were just meaningless little nothings to you. All the times I spent trying to talk to you, cheer you up, make you laugh. All amount to nothing in your life sequence. Why is it, you remember all the little things that HE'S done to make you smile. And me.....nothing?
You wanna know how I feel? I feel like I'm punching a wall. Why? Because no matter how many times I punch the wall, no matter how much pain I have to endure, now matter how much I bleed, there's isn't even a dent on the wall. Yet I'm left with bleeding and sore knuckles.
You're that wall.
I'm bleeding and you don't even flinch.
Screw you. I love you but you don't give a flying FUCK.
Saturday, 3 May 2008
King Dork
I was reading that book that Latifah lent me, 'King Dork' and ohmygod, Latifah, I love it. (: Mostly because Chi-Moe is such an interesting character and mostly because it involves a lot of music. I.E. The Who. (:
Anyways, it's Saturday morning. Part of me can't wait to go to tuition, part of me just wants to crawl back into bed. -.-'
Hmmm....
I'm listening to NLT, this band that Baizura is currently into right now. They're okay-ish, it's cute that they say that McFly influenced them but right now, the McFly part of Natasha is either currently in a coma or possibly in such a drunken state that she's still hung over. I don't know why but lately, it's mostly been all about punk music for me. Or some other music that is very different to McFly. Cue Sum 41, Skillet, A Perfect Circle and Scary Kids Scaring Kids. And what scares me is that NLT just have that classic boy band thing going on it's.....sort of.....
o.O
Fresh?
Because let's be honest here, everyone hates those choreographed dance things these days and it's all about 'writing-your-own-songs-playing-your-own-music' kind of thing, that it's sort of freaky (but good freaky) that there's a new band that's going against all those so-called rules. I guess what makes me like NLT is the fact that they can actually dance. And not, lame dance moves choreographed by that dude from 'Bring It On' with the spirit fingers and everything.
No.
It's actual dancing and they're pretty good.
Speaking of music.....Don't you just love it when you can bond with someone over music? Like somehow, everything just fits and you feel like the other person understands you because you both get the music, get the lyrics.
But what happens when the person absolutely point blank refuses to listen to any of the things that you like and announces it's either, 'too loud', 'too rock' or just plain un-listenable. Okay, I get it that people have their own opinions to everything but thanks for insulting just about 3/4 halves of the kind of music that I like.
I mean, how narrow minded does it seem, that just because you don't like the melody, you just stop the song and say, "It's not good."
Do you have any freakin' idea how long it took those bands to write those songs? To create the melodies? Sure you got a problem with the melody but hello? Listen to the lyrics.
*sighs*
I guess I'm just more or less sore about someone. I mean, I'm afraid to share the songs that I love in case he thinks that they're lame or whatever. And if he does say that, I'll just.....go all gah. Because, well, how would you like it, if you're able to relate to the song so much that just by listening to the lyrics they can make you cry.....
And then someone comes along and says that the song is crap.
I guess I wouldn't be on the wrong track (bahaha. Track) when I say, you just might end up punching them.
Right. I need to get ready for tuition. Ngeh....I guess I'll update later if anything interesting happens...
Anyways, it's Saturday morning. Part of me can't wait to go to tuition, part of me just wants to crawl back into bed. -.-'
Hmmm....
I'm listening to NLT, this band that Baizura is currently into right now. They're okay-ish, it's cute that they say that McFly influenced them but right now, the McFly part of Natasha is either currently in a coma or possibly in such a drunken state that she's still hung over. I don't know why but lately, it's mostly been all about punk music for me. Or some other music that is very different to McFly. Cue Sum 41, Skillet, A Perfect Circle and Scary Kids Scaring Kids. And what scares me is that NLT just have that classic boy band thing going on it's.....sort of.....
o.O
Fresh?
Because let's be honest here, everyone hates those choreographed dance things these days and it's all about 'writing-your-own-songs-playing-your-own-music' kind of thing, that it's sort of freaky (but good freaky) that there's a new band that's going against all those so-called rules. I guess what makes me like NLT is the fact that they can actually dance. And not, lame dance moves choreographed by that dude from 'Bring It On' with the spirit fingers and everything.
No.
It's actual dancing and they're pretty good.
Speaking of music.....Don't you just love it when you can bond with someone over music? Like somehow, everything just fits and you feel like the other person understands you because you both get the music, get the lyrics.
But what happens when the person absolutely point blank refuses to listen to any of the things that you like and announces it's either, 'too loud', 'too rock' or just plain un-listenable. Okay, I get it that people have their own opinions to everything but thanks for insulting just about 3/4 halves of the kind of music that I like.
I mean, how narrow minded does it seem, that just because you don't like the melody, you just stop the song and say, "It's not good."
Do you have any freakin' idea how long it took those bands to write those songs? To create the melodies? Sure you got a problem with the melody but hello? Listen to the lyrics.
*sighs*
I guess I'm just more or less sore about someone. I mean, I'm afraid to share the songs that I love in case he thinks that they're lame or whatever. And if he does say that, I'll just.....go all gah. Because, well, how would you like it, if you're able to relate to the song so much that just by listening to the lyrics they can make you cry.....
And then someone comes along and says that the song is crap.
I guess I wouldn't be on the wrong track (bahaha. Track) when I say, you just might end up punching them.
Right. I need to get ready for tuition. Ngeh....I guess I'll update later if anything interesting happens...
Friday, 2 May 2008
Childhood memories
So there we were yesterday on Labour Day, half doing our Geography project and half acting like crazy little kids that we actually are. (: Trisher, Myra, thanks for what could be counted as one of the best days of this year.
Ahhh yes.... I'm in need of a specialist. I know. Don't worry, I've got Dr. Dynamite on speed dial. (:
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